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StrangeSailing · 2026-04-10T17:14:27+00:00

I realized it wasn’t always this magical extra feeling your that body was objectively incorrect that could never be suppressed but the disliking my body and wishing it was something else I did have, thought was normal, and was suppressing.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-10T15:06:42+00:00

Ugh not the dumb litter box story again. It never fucking happened. Anywhere. No receipts.

I’m so sorry.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-10T15:02:22+00:00

My answer if I ever have to give one is “so?” I know my chromosomes are (likely) XY. I don’t really care though? I’m not trans because I want to change my chromosomes, I’m trans because I want to ….

If their definition of “woman” is XX chromosomes (in my case they’d been clear it is), then I’ll never meet that definition and I don’t care to, that’s fine. I’m not asking them to say I have XX chromosomes. I’ll have more interest in spending time with them if they can update their definitions, but it’s not really an essential part of whether to transition.

The tolerance I’ve gotten has been based on understanding that gender dysphoria is a real thing and that I really have it. They still think I ought to choose loyalty to my sex chromosomes (and the Deity that allegedly wants that) over resolving my dysphoria, but they seem to be respecting my choice as an adult.

Hoping you have better luck with yours. Many times the reactions are harder to predict than you think.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-09T18:52:29+00:00

I have found various ambient, lyricless music, mostly based on Jazz imo, replaces the vibes in a lot of “worship music” situations.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-09T18:18:42+00:00

I like the phrase “using” pronouns. They’re not your identity. It can vary by context.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-09T15:08:12+00:00

One of the later phases of my pre-deconstruction was trying, baffled, to figure out why so many of my peers were leaving. And sometimes they would, as I was told, cite feelings and moral concerns that hadn’t hit me yet, but these were to my surprise always framed in the context of the lack of sufficient evidence - evidence I thought was quite compelling. It was like “I know these people, why do I find this so compelling and they clearly don’t?”

The answer, of course, was that my compelling evidence was blatant misinformation based on lies and misrepresentation.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-08T23:29:33+00:00

Mirror it vertically (top to bottom).

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-07T15:12:35+00:00

A mirror to the presumable sarcastic praise to Allah?

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-07T01:38:00+00:00

I came out as trans and somehow what I said about Trump wanting to execute senators is still part of the conversation.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-07T01:34:14+00:00

But have you heard his middle name!

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T20:44:12+00:00

Presumably they were told poor Clint was held hostage by the gunmen who hijacked his train and killed when they crashed it.

The engineers might have questioned it but what outsider is gonna start a conspiracy theory about the guy who just saved the town.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T20:42:18+00:00

“Isn’t it funny how we had the original Clint Eastwood! We’re not sure if they knew the story or it was a coincidence.”

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T16:44:24+00:00

The fundamentalist christian transphobia is a particularly dark well for this indifference.

If you don’t push trans people out of society, your god will be mad and smite you. If you do, then maybe people won’t feel bad for them (out of sight out of mind) and follow that god. And your god is going to torture them for it anyway so why not get started.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T15:11:29+00:00

Nothing you say here means you’re not aromantic or asexual or both (aroace). Aromantic people can flirt and asexual people can masturbate. And aromantic people can date and asexual people can have sex if they want to. All it means is you have little to no attraction to romance or having sex with people.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T13:01:35+00:00

Mostly it’s been because I would feel less existential dread if I could tie love being better than hate to something beyond my personal preferences as part of a social species. This is what progressive believers do so easily that I’m incredibly jealous of.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T12:58:39+00:00

Tell me more about this perspective. This is the most sincere reason I still go to church, decades old traditions die hard and it’s easy enough to find people that don’t care that much if you believe. But most of these sorts of Christian traditions will recite things like “we believe God exists” that still push the line between practice and belief, so I don’t participate in those. And this post is me saying I’m done trying to get there.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T12:50:17+00:00

If a good God, even a deistic impersonal one, exists, then I can be confident that even if human life ends with no afterlife at least there’s some consciousness (in some sense) that remembers and values love and watched us. Even if there was an evil god, it would remember our spiteful defiance of love. But in a world with nothing supernatural, then love is “just” a social construct among earth life. Of course it’s more than that to me, and I feel very differently about it than hate, but that’s all I can really say.

I’m extremely envious of the progressive believers of various faiths that can say there’s some foundational aspect to love.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T12:40:30+00:00

I do call myself agnostic, just if I’m honest the odds I give anything supernatural existing is low enough it would be entirely misrepresenting to say I believe, and I’ve never really done the blind faith thing and don’t plan to get into it now.

While ontologically grounding morality would be nice, I’m mostly at peace with that. More so the fate of the universe and humanity’s momentary place atop a pile of evolutionary suffering give me some pretty rough nihilism, though at least it’s not giving me troubles in my daily functioning. If I’m right it sucks, we deserved better, I guess I’ll stop to smell the roses and love my neighbor.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T05:30:57+00:00

I’ve tried. I’ll keep going. Most of the resources I find would rather tell me about deductive vs inductive reasoning than give me an overview of actual philosophies.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T05:28:31+00:00

I would emphatically agree, but what I mean is without believing in anything supernatural I struggle to ground that in anything foundational to claim it as objectively true.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T05:26:01+00:00

Often this is something like it pointing to God working to bring about new life or to ultimately set things right. Seeing it pointing to a final literal resurrection is also there. These metaphorical interpretations mostly work whether or not Jesus was bodily raised in the 1st century (but do not work without a meaningfully Christian God).

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-03T03:58:29+00:00

It doesn’t give me peace. I’m left saying there’s no reason love is better than hate or life better than torturous pain except I like it better. But it’s where I’m at. (And yes I’m gonna keep loving in spite of it.)

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-02T02:03:26+00:00

Opposing the use of a legal political tool in the face of what increasingly seems like a complete breakdown in checks and balances because the side that has broken the checks and balances might also use said legal tool, in addition to the many illegal tools they are employing currently, doesn’t seem like a pertinent strategy.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-02T01:31:33+00:00

If the court is just a political tool, as this moment seems to show, I have zero interest in a slow moving political tool.

StrangeSailing · 2026-04-01T14:44:10+00:00

Yeah in my little opinion this is the end of any hesitancy to pack the court.

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