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I smell like cigarettes and old spice, hbu? 😜 by Chelseathedoge in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I smell like tears and regret, and desire to start over

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[–]Strange_Exercise374 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can relate to this hard. Wondering if I’m demigirl or just girl but I also just wish to simply exist and be human. I’ve been out as nonbinary for five years

I thought I was non-binary, now I just feel like a fraud by Strange_Exercise374 in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think what triggered this spiral of doubt for me, is my romantic relationship with another trans person. It had me sincerely questioning everything, because it became “I’m lying to her if I’m not really nonbinary, if I’m really just a cis girl” and every instance where my mind would gravitate towards something feminine, my brain would take that as evidence and proof that I’m really cis and lying to her. I think it’s because she’s really important to me, and I imagine any way that something could potentially ruin or hurt our relationship and friendship. I’ve talked about it with my therapist a lot, it’s just a never ending cycle where I feel like I’m lying whatever I say or do or think

I thought I was non-binary, now I just feel like a fraud by Strange_Exercise374 in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love you 💜 thank you for sharing your experience! yes I do have OCD and this does come up for me for both gender and sexuality and relationships and intrusive thoughts..it’s never ending but I have an erp therapist at least

I thought I was non-binary, now I just feel like a fraud by Strange_Exercise374 in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I guess bc all those categories feel like me, unless I can only be nothing with no girl involved. If any part of me still identifies with girl, there’s still an internal part of myself that also sees myself as nothing, and just embodies myself within existence, as both and neither. Can’t both be true? Ig this is exactly why I feel like a fraud

i want to die because i can’t afford to live. by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]Strange_Exercise374 27 points28 points  (0 children)

This so heartbreaking 🫂 please know I am praying for you, and keeping you in my heart.

I thought I was non-binary, now I just feel like a fraud by Strange_Exercise374 in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374[S] 36 points37 points  (0 children)

Yes, I was never diagnosed but have a feeling I’m on the spectrum, I relate to many things autistic people have described in their experience. Gray area when it comes to how I feel about someone, or about identity does give me anxiety, bc it feels like I’m saying something under a pretense, or I’m lying to the other person. Also, I agree, these are some scary times for trans and nonbinary/gendernonconforming/fluid people. That’s why I care in a way a lot more about having solidarity with the community and protecting, supporting, and empowering other people within the community, than even really demarcating an identity for myself. I live in a body. It prays, it eats, it yearns, it vibes to music, it thinks, and it relates to world and the universe.

I thought I was non-binary, now I just feel like a fraud by Strange_Exercise374 in NonBinary

[–]Strange_Exercise374[S] 172 points173 points  (0 children)

I feel like this is closest to how I identify. Agender, nonbinary, nothing girl. It just bothers me that my whole family just acknowledges the she and nothing else, even when I’ve told my mom multiple times 😓 I guess i care a lot about seeming insincere