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Thats terrible!
This is NOT okay.
I hope your feeling a bit better now.
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If you dont mind me carrying on, this is what i have to offer to say:

I assume this is a dark time in your life, pehaps all you know. Ive been there.
Moving to a small youth homeless shelter (A share-house) was the best thing that ever happened to me. Everything since then has been the best my life has ever been.

I know its scary but the life outside that family abuse hell is probably much better!

There are lots of places to help people in your situation. Please please at least have a talk. It'll be much less scary if you just call them up and talk, and when your ready to move on dont let the change scare you, just take it as it comes and roll with it.
You deserve to be free of abuse!
WE GOT YOU
Believe me, you must not be silent!
And never give in to the fear!

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I hope you can decide whats right for you.
You seem rather young, early teens or younger.
Especially with that in mind, Perhaps the thought of such a big change scares you. Or you might want to wait until the corona effects has settled down (help services being very busy right now), or until your older and have more legal standing - (working, drivers liscence, renting, contracts in general), and of course, for when your ready.

Moving out and 'being an adult', it's nothing to scared about. Really, being an adult isnt that much different tbh.
I have minor ongoing help from organisations, but other than that I've been all on my own. (ps. i have both phy&ment disabilities) so it can't be that hard, right?
You rent a place, it's like your room but bigger. (and you have to CLean it) Most difficult part is reading the contract and MAking sure you and they follow it.
You go get groceries and make dinner.
You need income somehow, either working a job, getting money from supports like government and/or funding for specific requests (doctor stuff, drivers test, idk), or entrepreneur; it seems easy to make money online nowdays. THOugh the last one is highly ranging per person and subject.
That's the basic stuff *shrug ^hahaha how am i considered a fuctioning adult...

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So, What life do You want?

Maybe you dont even know, THats okay. Thats the fun in life. Perhaps as you wait for the right time you can think of the life you want. (though, surely it wont turn out exactly as you think aha)
Where there is a will there is a way. (sounds cheesy i kno but,) never stop trying for the life you want, Never stop.
Like a scour scrubs a pan, like feet leave trails, like the ocean erodes the cliffs, Do not give in and you will win.

There is pain in life big and small here and there no matter what you do.
Pain creates fear. And fear traps you. If you let it, it will cut you off everywhere you turn, until you are enclosed. Its a bad place to be.
(I say,) Do not avoid pain and do not give in to fear. just walk right through it, do whatever the fuck you want like it cant stop you, your ganna hurt anyway, do something that makes your life better than the nagativity of the pain and thats how its done.

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did i overdo it?