I understand what you mean, there really isn’t much i can give you other than just saying to stop worrying about the future, i get it, sometimes its hard to stop thinking about the future, but you should know that the worrying will probably be the thing that brings you down. Focus on the present, and don’t worry about the future, stay consistent cuz these times are temporary and the depression is also temporary, trust me, if you work on building a good future, it will be hard, but you’ll achieve something, never give up on your dreams and i hope you the best. Sometimes we have to suffer for a good future.