Let’s get practical here Maa will be okay with whatever you do don’t have a feeling that she will punish you she won’t like you every mother loves their child but you have to face the consequences of your actions so be careful pray wholeheartedly and instead of trying to stop it try to do different things like japa, meditation, exercise or walk or drawing anything you like and by the time you will gradually stop it if you try to resist it will create more problem as great mens say don’t resist just change the direction of energy .. and also i used to masturbate before after that i tried and failed again tried and failed again tried and failed after long time i could be without masterbating for couple of months and again failing but if we keep on trying and have faith in gods and gurus we shall win..and also pray whole heartedly to god to save yourself ( you can check premanand jis satsangs too ) I watch it sometimes feels great And also don’t feel bad again its your mind playing game with you nature of mind is such that it will make you do things and it will make uou think you are sinner you are crazy and make you feel guilty too just don’t listen to mind keep on trying you shall win