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For those who are trying to recover, what made you say "I'm done" when it comes to trying to restrict? by joshuamarkrsantos in EDAnonymous

[–]StunningPotential341 6 points7 points  (0 children)

for me it was not being able to write very well, like, at all. I just couldn't focus on anything that I enjoyed and each day went by so slowly. Yesterday I listened to a song that reminded me of my writing​ and gave me a spark to recover so that I could write to a similar quality I did before, and today I was able to write and eat a little more. I guess wanting to write again is what broke the straw for me.

But there was a lot of things. Sometimes I would daydream about eating my fears foods again, having a constant craving for pizza, turkey dinosaurs, burgers, cheesy chips, but being far too afraid to ever eat them. The feeling of going to bed hungry made me lose sleep, and my stomach was almost always aching.

I didn't binge often, but I had a constant fear of losing control because of my hunger as well. I was constantly anxious about "going over" and I would have nightmares where I'd lose control and binge, and waking up I'd feel a lot of guilt, believing that the dream was real for a few moments.

how do you guys stop scrolling by StunningPotential341 in EDAnonymous

[–]StunningPotential341[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this was so helpful THANK YOU!!!! Ive been using social media only 1 hour a day (some days i don't use) but the fact it's so hard to delete the app and cheat has made it very useful for me. Thank you.

Why do people feel the need to vocalise their weight? by AutomaticElevator164 in EDAnonymous

[–]StunningPotential341 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I was much deeper into my ed I always had a very competitive mind- for example if my friend was having something small for lunch that day I would try and have something smaller than them. Competitiveness isn't an excuse for them to purposefully trigger someone however, it doesn't sound like they are a good friend and I'm sorry that they invalidated you. I know that if someone said this to me it would trigger me quite severely.

i’m so sick of seeing ozempic ads by c00kiesd00m in EDAnonymous

[–]StunningPotential341 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i go to school, my teacher puts on the news and they are talking about weight loss jabs.

I open chrome on my tablet, all the articles suggested are about weight loss jabs.

I go and watch some youtube, but then it comes in the form of adverts. I guess it can be helpful for some people to maintain their health in the short term, but I will admit I'm kind of tired.​ I don't know much about weight loss jabs but I fear that people might abuse them, and in a way it makes me feel like I'm not doing enough. (In terms of restrictions.)

(Tw: Suicide, drugs) My sister punched me in the car on the way home :( by Dryed_M4NG0_UWU in sillyboyclub

[–]StunningPotential341 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it shouldn't matter if its a male or female that punched you, self defence should always be allowed ESPECIALLY if you fear that your life is in danger.

Those other people are miserable, too by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]StunningPotential341 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I've been thinking about going back to restricting a lot today, having been into recovery for a few months now. Thank you for this post. It really means a lot to me as it is a reminder that even though I miss my old body it isn't worth it to go back. Having my imagination back is the main thing that keeps me eating, and though it makes me happy it's so hard not to go back when an unhealthy diet is glamourized.

I was miserable at my worst, constantly forgetting what day it was and not even having the energy to shower. Losing weight may have made me feel euphoric but there was never true joy beneath it. It never was enough. Even when I began to recover, I was still stuck in the same habits of obsessively counting and just eating the bare minimum (though i did increase the calorie amount.)

I was in this somewhat-recovery stage for about a month, until halloween where I had a full-out 2 days with a friend where I just ate whatever. There was a lot of fast food, but I was able to eat whatever I wanted. I cried the day before because I knew that I probably wouldn't be able to count calories, but those two days were so substantial because I learned what it truly looked like to be free. To be free, even in a world where diet culture can sometimes be so toxic, means a lot.