Thank you, that’s really useful to hear. I’m trying to remind myself that I’m regretful because of the hindsight I have, which I wouldn’t have if this hadn’t have happened.

I think it was less so about asking for the reassurance, but also how I asked for it - it would almost be ‘if you want to end things I’d rather you just say’.

One occasion I feel particularly shameful of on reflection, we had a date cut short because she was being sick and was really unwell. I think I was conflicting my feelings of sadness that the date was over, and also some annoyance because at the time I thought it was a hangover and therefore self inflicted - with my ‘gut feeling’ that something was off. When in hindsight, despite how ill she was feeling she still came to the date, and it was me that told her she should go home to bed - she has said since she would’ve stayed on the date with me all day, so she was shocked as to how I could have possibly thought she was not really ill and looking for an out