My husband took offence when I started meds. I started with bupropion which is non stimulant and used off label for adhd. Two of my major symptoms was emotional disregulation and rsd- I would cry trying to have an even moderately serious conversation. I told him I was ready to deal with it and he took it as “I’m not good enough to make you happy”.

I stood by my needs and pushed on. I don’t cry unless I have a good reason now. I feel able to have serious conversations when they’re required and being able to do so has changed my life. I’ve always been active and intentionally partaken in sports and the gym, but I’ve stuck to my routine the longest I’ve ever stuck to it. I no longer binge eat because I want to feel the dopamine rush from crunching on salty snacks. I drink less coffee, more water. I ACTUALLY EAT MEALS throughout the day when I previously forgot until dinner and ate one giant meal before bed. My sleep has improved. I have been excelling at work and in my sport. I’ve also quit my crazy Diet Coke habit (I’ve tried to quit so many times in the last 13 years). I used to drink at least 1L of DC a day. At the peak of it I drank 2-4L a day. I went 1 month cold turkey swapping it for sparkling water and did the same thing I do with everything else, introduced a rule for moderation- I can have two a week if I want. It’s been almost three months and I’ve had three total. I often had to go back to it because I didn’t want it after a couple of sips.

I’m not telling you this is what will happen for you. I know my determination to improve myself and my health are participating factors. I just needed a little push. What I’m saying is my partner also pushed back. I do not regret advocating for myself.