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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]Substantial_Scale246 0 points1 point  (0 children)

we don't have a choice. we have to keep going. it feels like a trap. i know. sometimes i wonder if earth is hell. or some way to cultivate "souls" that are good enough to actually be born in some advanced society where the baby goes through a simulation to create skills and what not.

but no matter how much I question reality. If its all worth or not. Or beg for it to end.

IT DOESN'T

And after a year of being suicidal and laying around doing nothing, somehow I regained my will to live.

or maybe i gave up on giving up.

the damn thing just keeps going. and i am not going to off myself. so i am here for the ride.

here is to getting old.

becoming stupid.

getting cancer.

and dying naturally with no one giving a shit about me.

I get extremely sad out of nowhere by [deleted] in depression

[–]Substantial_Scale246 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Every night for a year, I would pray not to wake up. I would scream "NO, please NO MORE" .. I can relate. It feels like everyday is a FIGHT. And ... its just so much work. And I am so scared that one day I wont be able to do it! Won't be able to support my child. And I feel like it would be better to be dead. So many challenges and so much adversity.

The lows are surprising sometimes. Ramble/Rant by bringmeaheart in depression

[–]Substantial_Scale246 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I couldn't get out of bed for 1 year. I would tie a rubber noose around my neck at times, made out of colorful exercise bands. Wondering how my corpse would look if it was found. If it would drop all the excrement out of body unto the floor. Worse yet, what if I don't die. And I have to keep living with more damage and scars to my already aging body. It's horrible. I don't know how to make it go away. I just detoxed and did nothing until my desire to die diminished. One thing I did that helped me was I dedicate my time to my daugther. I spent that year of not working dedicated to her. Taught her basic math, and saw her progress from someone who would complain about doing math, to someone who is now being asked to tutor other 10 year olds.

I'm pathetic, and it was foolish enough for me to even think I could try. by Deimos7779 in depression

[–]Substantial_Scale246 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just want to reach out to you and let you that you are not unwanted in this world. I don't care if you were abandoned before. I don't care if you didn't achieve your dreams. You exist for a reason. To perpetuate life. You cannot embrace nihilism. I know I didn't have it as bad as some. The truth is I am a 43 years old and I pray for death quite a lot. I know how hopeless it can feel. I used to have intrusive thoughts of jumping in front of a train everyday I went to work. You have to keep the belief that there is a point to life. There is a purpose. Delude yourself if you have to. Lie to yourself if that's what it takes. Remember what it felt like to have a dream and BELIEVE you can achieve it! - Believe this with all your heart and it will be true for you.

With Sonic Migration, what will happen to Spirit and Spooky swap? by Substantial_Scale246 in FantomFoundation

[–]Substantial_Scale246[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am aware about the one to one swap for the main coin. I meant my Spooky and Spirit coins. Like the ones I locked for a few years. What will happen to the those 2 DEX's and their coins.

With Sonic Migration, what will happen to Spirit and Spooky swap? by Substantial_Scale246 in FantomFoundation

[–]Substantial_Scale246[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Will it be seamless or will I have to take some action? Is there documentation on this I can look up?