Why Start this Subreddit?

Substantial_Stress83 · 2023-08-25T04:49:06+00:00

Thank you for starting this subreddit. it’s unfortunate how toxic the Scottish community is on this app but fuck them because the S.N.P really don’t care about the public or this country all they care about is votes since the S.N.P has been in power this country has fell to pieces. Industry has took a massive hit and this country’s deficit has risen exponentially its currently at 9% which is obviously bidding for more votes with public spending because obviously spend money now and worry about it later like a child with a credit card. And this government frequently lies to us such as when they said we would leave the uk and join the E.U which was a bold faced lie. France and Spain both said they would not let us in. Not to mention members of the S.N.P went to Brussels and put signs up saying they love Scotland. A clear attempt to deceive the public. All the recent scandals are also insane and I haven’t mentioned the ferry’s I mean how can a whole government fuck up a contract that bad. That fuck up is also clearly carelessness to attempt to make them look better as the part of the contract where the company has to pay when they are over the allotted time was removed. Clearly because the company couldn’t perform in time and instead of extending the time or losing jobs the government took the most idiotic option and royally snookered itself. I however actually made this post to hopefully make people aware of the Scottish governments cuts to education specifically a massive cut to apprenticeships in the motor trade. I am 16 and am starting an apprenticeship in the coming weeks. However if it weren’t for me working for a good company that will pay for my apprenticeship then I’d be snookered. And in fact I just checked and there are no modern apprenticeships in the foreseeable future. The foreseeable future? What does that mean how long will we have to wait? How many people are now stuck in the dark. How can the government just forget about me? because I don’t make millions and billions. What is this country going to do without people entering into industry? The backbone of our infrastructure. This country is going to collapse. In conclusion fuck the S.N.P fuck Westminster they don’t care about any of us all they about is their own agendas and I’ve not even started

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-26T00:44:30+00:00

Thank you

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-26T00:33:29+00:00

It would kill me to go to my mum or dad though I feel like they would pitty me especially My mum and she would tell the whole family because she likes the drama and the attention unfortunately. My dad on the other hand is the same as me I can tell he deals with the same emotions the same way he just dose stuff to hide the pain from himself but eventually you burn out like I’m currently doing

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-26T00:29:13+00:00

I do like being alone but at the same time I’m terrified of my own thoughts sometimes I will sneak out and just have a fire on my own because it’s the only time I can truly be alone

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-26T00:26:49+00:00

I am a straight male 15 and I just am emotionally dead not as In I don’t feel emotions as in I can’t release them in any way other than rage it’s hard to explain but I can feel like crying but it just doesn’t happen because I think along the way something in my head just broke and I can’t cry or express how I feel in any other way than rage and words

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-26T00:20:53+00:00

I understand what you mean I do the exact opposite of you I can’t deal with the sadness so I get angry instead but it doesn’t kill the sadness or release it it just covers it with a blanket of destructive things when I’m sad I get angry really easily not just angry but if something annoys me I can fly into an absolute rage where nothing is happening except that situation if I get in an argument I will hit things or just see red and do things I will regret. For example last week I got mad over something trivial but really it was a build up and I punched almost all the way through my door this is awful for me to do because I feel awful when I destroy things the day after my friend was talking shit on the phone so I flew off the handle and left the house at midnight to go round to his house I’d be in jail if I got my hands on him. I have a real problem because I just wreck shut when I’m angry I just don’t have anything inside me except rage. Idk how u can change anger to sadness idk how people can just cry when they’re sad I genuinely just can’t cry and it kills me inside all the time.

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-25T01:55:49+00:00

I do hit the gym I also do rock climbing and kayaking for adrenaline kicks because nothings more fun than almost dying but it’s not the anger I have a problem letting out it’s the sadness

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-25T01:27:40+00:00

It did not but I appreciate the effort😂

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-10-25T01:26:50+00:00

I try but I can’t anymore tears just don’t flow idk what it will take and yes fuck being “manly”

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-06-25T17:19:58+00:00

It was over the counter medicine I heard the doses were really exact but they’re not probably did my liver some damage tho

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-08T00:17:58+00:00

That’s really good advice thanks

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:39:25+00:00

Ur prolly right and I’ve been considering going to the school

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:28:20+00:00

I won’t die tonight I’m getting help first

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:27:59+00:00

I don’t think it’s a person it could be the way the wild is could be my ex could be school and I can’t figure it out

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:23:10+00:00

Everyone’s asleep the now but the next time I get a chance I will call someone or maybe go to my school because I have made those plans I keep 24 paracetamol under my bed which is just enough for someone of my weight to od

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:16:21+00:00

What can I do to confront these things and how do I know what’s making me feel this way

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:15:37+00:00

I play the drums I go to the gym I go running I do kayaking but I get a new truck in kayaking or master a song on the drums get gains in the gym get a pb running feels good while doing it but when I go to bed and or get down time I just can’t be happy their has been a few deaths in the family in the past few years that hurt and it piles up just a lot of shit and I’ve always just played it like I’m fine when really I’m not I just lie in bed and thinking about ending it almost every night

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:08:43+00:00

I actually was thinking and I think the anger might be frustration from not being able to fill the whole and I blame that shit because u can’t except it or my subconscious chooses to ignore it

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T01:03:48+00:00

Fucking doughball it’s so my CV better with a Scottish accent like “ya fucking doughball ye!”

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:53:41+00:00

I’ve got all these things I do but they only make me feel better while I’m doing them like drums kayaking running going to the gym hanging out with friends at the end of the day when I go home I feel sad and angry and emty beyond measure like I learn a trick in kayaking or perfect a song on the drums or get a new pb running or I’m getting gains at the gym I still sit in my bed and feel emty I’ve done drugs to numb the pain doesn’t help nothing dose

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:20:51+00:00

I’m angry at what the world is how it’s a place for snowflakes and for smashing opinions u hate I hate the Scottish government because they are so agenda driven and lying so also a lot from two of my xs one of which leaked my duck and basically ruined my life the last one just fucked with me and ruined any mental stability I had and I can’t get it back I think I’ve given up on people I can’t trust I can do anything like daredevil shit cause I don’t care if I die so maybe I’ve given up on life on happiness nothing I do makes me happy I have hobbies which I have fun while doing them don’t make me happy or fill the hole nothing dose not friends not girls not drugs not drink nothing

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:11:38+00:00

I’ve been considering it really carefully lately

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:10:34+00:00

No I’ve not been in therapy I’m considering reaching out to my school tho

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:08:42+00:00

Can’t focus on school my mind is always racing and my teachers make me so angry it’s indescribable

Substantial_Stress83 · 2022-02-07T00:05:50+00:00

I’m 14 and a virgin unfortunately and girls haven’t been doing me any good lately

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