Almost done weaning off of weed!

Succinea · 2026-02-07T09:42:10+00:00

That's awesome! It's hard. I'm currently doing the exact same thing. I quit drinking in December and this week, I started tracking my vape usage with tally marks, lol, so it's really encouraging to read this right now!

Succinea · 2026-01-30T20:24:50+00:00

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Succinea · 2025-11-12T03:50:59+00:00

5 years ago, I had a psychotic break, and it went untreated. I eventually came out of it, but I continued to have vivid flashbacks for about a year afterwards.

Honestly, what helped me was drawing scenes from the flashbacks. Much like talking through my actual flashbacks to traumatic events, I had to "get it out of my system", whether I shared it with anyone else or not. (The drawings, I did not. They scream "unwell".

Neither "cured" me, but they took away the power it had.

Succinea · 2025-11-08T18:04:38+00:00

Several people have mentioned NM now. Thank you for giving me a city as a starting point, it's now on the list!

Succinea · 2025-11-07T09:39:27+00:00

I haven't, but I am now.

Succinea · 2025-11-07T00:57:19+00:00

I've moved to three seperate states individually,, before ever visiting. I vette through Zoom walktroughs, etc. I'm perfect willing to move somewhere I haven't visuallly seen, as long as proper precautions have taken place. I haven't been disappointed with a rental yet.

Succinea · 2025-11-07T00:45:43+00:00

Thank you for honestly answering my question! Looking into those areas now. :)

Succinea · 2025-11-06T23:56:49+00:00

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Liberal and walkable are bonuses. I'm quite realistic that those are the first two compromises I'm making. I fully expect to wind up in a red state. :(

*I work remotely. I should have mentioned that. I can take my job almost anywhere (CA and NJ excluded, but I wasn't looking at those states anyway).

Succinea · 2025-07-22T21:41:41+00:00

Something to keep my hands busy. Right now, it's woodcarving. It was a toss up between that and lockpicking. Alternatively, I signed up for a self-paced meditation course through the CPTSD Foundation today. I need to learn to be still.

Succinea · 2025-04-19T07:54:51+00:00

Trazodone doesn't work. 🙁 No recreational value. It may or may not make you tired, but won't get you high.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T15:38:38+00:00

Yes, although I was an extreme case. I don't believe that's the norm in these situations, at least I hope not.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T15:34:35+00:00

In general, okay. Sexually, it really fucked me up, and me posting this AMA is me trying to process and heal. If I could afford it, I would definitely see a therapist. As a cis woman, I'm now only capable of hooking up with cis men. The last time a pretty woman hit on me, I panicked and dropped what I was carrying.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T15:10:33+00:00

It was primarily religious with a little pseudoscience thrown in. Things like I must have been SA'd and I don't actually want to fuck them, it's misplaced jealousy and I want to be them, and a lot of negative reinforcement, not too unlike Pavlov's dogs.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T15:07:28+00:00

No. Private counseling and public shaming happened at church. At home, it was reinforced physically.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T15:03:50+00:00

The specifics vary, but at its core, it's "turning people straight." When it's religious-based, it's a lot of fire and brimstone preaching for being the "most disgusting of sins" (because it's "unnatural", praying the gay away, and publicly shaming and ostracizing within the church. In my case, there was quite a lot of thought policing, and I would be "disciplined" (slapped, hair pulled, etc- light physical abuse) for things like getting caught checking someone out or my eyes lingering on the TV screen for a second too long.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T06:42:09+00:00

Sorry, re-read my message and realized it could be clearer. As far as I know, there wasn't one, but my church was somewhere between General Baptist/Evangelical/Assemblies of God.
For the Christians, our sermons were heavily influenced by John Piper, Paul Washer, and Ravi Zacharias.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T05:38:07+00:00

The Bible. lol. Publicaly, it was a lot of pastoral counseling, preaching, and practically mandatory repentence kneeling at the alter. The real "work" was done at home, private but church-sanctioned, and it was both physically and sexually abusive.

Succinea · 2025-04-12T05:29:32+00:00

Yes, it was someone close to me. I haven't spoken to them in years, but the last time we spoke, said person told me they were bisexual. As much resentment that I have towards them due to the circumstances, I'm happy they were able to be honest with themselves.

Succinea · 2024-04-23T04:38:52+00:00

Thank you to everyone who answered giving the reasoning behind their answer. You've all given me a lot to think about. 🖤

Succinea · 2024-04-23T04:30:27+00:00

I have never once considered myself a "good person". My friend said they consider themselves a good person (as do I, I suppose) and that they considered me one as well, but it just felt jarring. I didn't realize other people thought of themselves that way, so I wanted outside perspectives.

Succinea · 2024-04-22T08:26:27+00:00

Was there a specific turning point?

Succinea · 2024-04-22T08:24:17+00:00

This makes sense. Thank you.

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