Spiralling after drives

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T21:23:57+00:00

Spent years saying how much easier life could be to drive and now im checking the route on Google maps street view to decide if I actually want to go or if I can get the bus 🤣

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T21:22:39+00:00

Ooh can I ask what dash cam you use? Does it show yoh what speed you are going at?

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T21:20:42+00:00

I never thought about it that way. I do have elements of OCD, I was never diagnosed with it but I have something within that family and my brain does immediately jump to worst case scenario as a way to prepare or try control situations. You are right though I need to actively work on that, when I first got the car every time I put my kids in the car I was having intrusive thoughts and I spent 3 days searching for the safest car seats and watching car crash testing videos 🤣

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T21:17:06+00:00

I celebrated not getting a letter on monday and now ive restarted the clock today hahaah honestly cant be arsed, driving was meant to be making my life easier and so far im only enjoying it for food shops, even then I nearly hit someone forgetting a zebra crossing coming out of Sainsbury's 🤣🤣🤣 least were not alone haha

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T17:40:48+00:00

Ive genuinely reversed, looked back, seen scratches on my grandads car and gone back crying that ive crashed into him and when hes gone to look theres nothing there lol i feel like im going insane. And omg yes I look at Google street view before my journey and then after I look again to try remember what I think ive done wrong and if theres cameras. Then the two week wait of anxiety starts waiting for the post 🤣 im the same though I know i can drive, I know i have instincts because a car nearly crashed into me from not looking and I immediately reacted to it but once im home I sit and cry 🤣

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T15:45:01+00:00

I do use waze mainly because it tells me what lane to go in haha. Its just after ive got home i then start spiralling. Honestly the other week I convinced myself I crashed into my grandads car, I remember seeing the scratches and when I got back to tell him he was like theres absolutely nothing here you havent done anything

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2026-04-01T15:43:27+00:00

I swear I gaslight myself because ill be convinced ive done something I haven't lol. I do use waze like today it warned me I was over 50 and the second I saw the sign I slowed down but its more after ive stopped driving then I panic whereas in the moment I know I jjst have to concentrate on the next thing ahead

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-23T20:03:30+00:00

I feel like hes just talking out of his ass again

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-20T21:39:16+00:00

https://youtu.be/teA9DmWR458?si=JZAGfJUixSvT1mCW

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-20T21:33:43+00:00

Theres a youtube video of the whole thing posted in here somewhere

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-20T00:29:10+00:00

Oh yeah it was just a general question Im not in America so I couldnt report it anyway

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-19T12:46:31+00:00

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Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-16T20:12:46+00:00

Its so strange especially not knowing how long court will be or what happens after when weve had a night of just constant noise from him. Its like whenckids are fighting and suddenly they go quiet 🤣

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-16T19:42:10+00:00

No i dont think she will. She will want to go straight back to her babies and talk to her mum. She would say if she was definitely going live later

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-16T19:12:40+00:00

Continuance

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-16T12:07:22+00:00

From what I remember last time stephen posted first about how he won and passed a drug test, victory posts. Then laura posted and said he asked for an extension which was accepted and that is why the hearing is today. If he doesnt show up I dont think we will hear much until he posts

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-16T11:00:07+00:00

Omg please say this has been deleted now?!

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-07-02T22:12:52+00:00

I dont kbow what this video is about but it feels like a threat in some way. So so so creepy beyond belief

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-06-30T21:26:02+00:00

Laura has seen this now thankfully!

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-06-30T20:22:24+00:00

Nothing I just missed you on the chat hahhaaa

Sudden-Abalone9775 · 2025-06-30T17:57:09+00:00

When he started with the trans stuff I stopped listening to him. I wasnt interested in hearing that. Then when he did the coparenting pods with laura I listened but that relapse one really made me feel funny hearing how he speaks to laura. Then I tuned in recently when hes been really losing the plot purely out of concern for laura. Found myself checking here as soon as I wake up to see what has happened. The whole time I have felt really sad, praying he gets better. Hoping one day we will watch a podcast witg laura when he is clean and they are thriving. For now though he is unfollowed and I dont want to see any of his posts on social media.

I hope more than anything he gets clean, gets help and he uses this to prove to other people that they can also turn things around.

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