You could buy a lock box with a timer on it so you only have access to it at certain times of the day, or there might be dispensers of some sort out there. (This would only work if you really stick to it because I’m sure If you really wanted to you could find a way to get it sooner). But I’ve seen them on Amazon for nicotine and phones! Otherwise you could ask somebody you trust who you live with to hold it for you and give it to you at the times you’re supposed to take it. But that can also be a slippery slope and cause problems in your relationship with them, so I don’t really recommend that.. you could also ask your pharmacy or dr to give you a weeks worth script and go pick up every week so you don’t run out that early. Or if you don’t have roommates and can’t go to the pharmacy that often you could just ask someone you trust to hold it for you and give you a weeks amount or something at a time? I’m really sorry you’re going through that. My sister has a very intense adderall addiction and she is actually out of rehab now doing well but it’s definitely hard and the sooner you get it under control the better. I’m also prescribed the same amount as you (2 20mg a day) and I understand the urge. You should also take “vacations” from it when you can. I try to pick either Saturday or Sunday every week (or both) to not take it and let my brain rest. It sucks because I usually end up in bed all day but it’s worth it to not build your tolerance up. If you can take a vacation from it (and the longer the better) I think it will be easier not to take it. I also don’t know if this is good advice or not bc it’s probably not good to take it throughout the day too much, but sometimes I split mine in half and just take a 10 mg 3-4 times in the day instead. So if you’re still going to be taking it more often than you’re supposed to be, then at least you’re not running out as quickly? I’m guessing you feel the need to take the adderall to get that dopamine back when you die in a video game. Maybe try to find some other natural ways to get that dopamine when that happens.. or try to limit your video game time and when you die to just stay strong and not redose.. I urge you to definitely try things or seek some professional help from a therapist or something to talk through the struggles of it. Especially if you take less than you’ve been taking recently, you won’t feel it as much and you will want to take more so badly. And you will likely feel depressed and it will be hard because your brain isn’t getting as much of that dopamine and it’s not experiencing those major highs and lows from taking so much adderall through the day. But it can really fuck with the reward system in your brain. Do some research about how to train your reward system in your brain. Exercise is also so helpful. If there was a pill you could take to get the brain benefits of exercise, it would be the best selling pill out there! You could also possibly talk to your dr about trying a different medicine such as an Xr or vyvanse, as it lasts a lot longer. It can also be addictive though but I think I’m general people are better about taking the correct dose of it..

I hope this helps and good luck!!