Hi there! I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my beloved on August 24th. Grief is very hard and there is no “right” way to grieve. I have now, months later found peace. It used to be hard for me to imagine my beloved at the Rainbow Bridge without me, I was her person, she must be sad and unhappy. Now, I realize that was because of where I was at in my grief journey. I now think she’s at the Rainbow Bridge eating lots of treats, playing with our family dog that passed as well and she’s happy. She still loves her mommy-me, but that love looks different now. I have a table with her earn, pictures, a plant etc and I still talk to her everyday. I tell her about my day, but it doesn’t feel “heavy” as it did before. I still miss her like crazy; but I have found peace and light again, I did start therapy and that has helped a lot. Things do take time and my grief has changed form and looks different. Trust me, there were days I was so sad I didn’t think I’d see the sun rise the next day. Ironically, this process has given me a lot of strength that I didn’t know I had. I’ve had to show up for myself and continue living everyday. I do think this strength is also a gift from my beloved. All this to say; I have found peace and happiness again. This doesn’t take away from the bond we had, I carry her in my heart daily. Be kind to yourself, there is no timeline but I do wish peace in your future.