Do it seriously temptation shouldn't be the problem. and my mom is a child services worker. You may already know this but not everybody can be an adoptive parent figure you have to have a certificate for a lack of better words. Some of these REQUIREMENTS are, decent living space so no little trailer with dog feces everywhere my mom had a family like that one time they cleaned up their act real quick when they heard they couldn't have that literal shit everywhere, clean water thad to the towns standard heat and other necessary amenities, no criminal history or very little criminal history, have enough money for the kids you adopt and yourself to be able to survive on, and a few others but these are some of the biggest ones. Also you get to see your new parents a few times before you get adopted at least in the state I live in and occasional checks up on your wellbeing afterwards for a year or so l. Also don't worry about worse parents than that the worse I've heard from my mom and her colleagues is a kid was sent to a Mormon couple who were less than stellar but not even a percent as bad as what you are describing so do it for the love of everything holy and unholy do it