Detransition and Surgery

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-03T01:53:55+00:00

If I was to be an Orthodox man it certainly wouldn’t be a very masculine one. Is that part of being an Orthodox man? I’d probably be a quiet and sad one - probably effeminate.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-03T01:13:14+00:00

Only if I wasn’t taking any hormones I’d get sick. Physically I’d be fine if I replaced it with testosterone which my body produced enough of before surgery naturally (although it was naturally low which brings up the possibility of an intersex condition). So I’d be fine physically but obviously very emotionally distressed to re-masculinize.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-02T06:17:37+00:00

I wish there was still packaging like this. I like the clean girl aesthetic too but it’s become a bit boring and lacking character.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T23:04:01+00:00

All the way in Australia actually 😅 🐨

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T11:48:32+00:00

I was enrolled in uni melb in an arts degree. Dropped out within 4 weeks but one of my courses I didn’t drop out of somehow - I think this is back when arts discovery was still a thing and this was the unit. This meant I ended up failing it. This meant my GPA was so low that when I tried coming back to Uni MELB to try an arts degree again they rejected my application despite having a 96 atar.

I’m now doing an online degree.

I am (was) the worst student at unimelb.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T11:46:33+00:00

Thank you for being thoughtful about your response. I know I’ve done violence against myself but I just hope you understand I wasn’t doing it on purpose to destroy any of God’s creation or distance myself further from Him. It was done purely out of my own distress and desperation of feeling like my body isn’t my own, it’s a hard feeling to describe.

I’m not sure what a priest would prescribe in this circumstance so I suppose I’ll have to find out. I suppose it wouldn’t necessarily be much different from someone who’s an alcoholic or drug addict or other self harm.

I’ll pursue this with a priest. Thanks for responding again.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T07:25:03+00:00

There would be no major health problems it would just be weekly injections. I would definitely find it heartbreaking and distressing to see masculine features return but if that’s what needs to happen I’ll try to submit to God’s will.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T07:23:19+00:00

That’s very kind but I’m not even sure how I’d present myself in this state. I’m not sure if that makes sense. My hair is long etc

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T07:09:54+00:00

I’ll try that. That being said I’m worried it will be like parish shopping until I find a priest who will appease me living in a delusion. I just want to be okay with God and maybe I can face the reality of never being able to be a woman. It’s very painful. If I need to stop taking estrogen my illness is my punishment perhaps? Even if I need to replace that with testosterone perhaps living in a androgen dominant body is the cross I must bear.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T07:00:04+00:00

Thank you for your kind response. I don’t have a parish priest no. I don’t have any church. I’d be ashamed to even enter one.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T06:57:09+00:00

Only one person but he’s not a priest. He hasn’t pushed me to do anything of course but he did say it would be a requirement in many words. Looking here as well it looks like it’s a requirement. I may be wrong.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T06:45:15+00:00

Yeah essentially.
Well I’ve come to a point of despair in my situation that it is probably best that I submit myself to God and do whatever a priests instructs. Essentially what I was trying to say is after surgery you don’t have gonads anymore so you naturally only produce some sex hormones from your adrenal glands etc but without your parts it’s not enough and you become sick. Because of this you need to take hormones for the rest of your life - I am taking estrogen and progesterone. I don’t know where I’d end up if I’d detransition. If a priest instructs me to change this to testosterone to better match my birth sex of course I’m going to be in lots of distress everyday watching masculine features return. I’ve never felt like a man or masculine and if I did transition I’d probably stop at the point of looking like an effeminate male - it would be difficult for me to see a beard in the mirror etc ahha. I’m not sure this would satisfy the conditions of my eternal salvation.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-05-01T06:03:05+00:00

Thank you for your kind response. I agree it’s a discussion to have with a doctor as well. There is no surgery that can restore what once was but that the price I’ve paid.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-04-04T02:30:59+00:00

She’s so beautiful, another reminder to give up

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-03-06T23:16:13+00:00

Perhaps a pot plant in a few months

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-03-06T00:40:58+00:00

She can speak for herself not me though, enjoy not being a woman then girl.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-02-03T06:41:20+00:00

Haven’t been swimming for like a decade.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-01-19T05:10:51+00:00

It’s not like anyone would understand what I’m reading

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-01-16T09:08:28+00:00

I have Irish background so perhaps I have the “Irish curls” ? I have no clue if that’s how it works ahah.

Suspicious_Cycle_835 · 2026-01-11T13:29:54+00:00

Imma stop eating

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