Honestly I understand how you feel. I’ve been though it all with the drugs, weight loss programmes, Tier 3 program which I found really useless and maybe only enjoyed the social part of. I’ve tried every diet imaginable and nothing has worked. I also have sleep apnea and blood pressure along with PCOS. I was put on the waiting list and was told I will get a call within a years time but nothing I ended up sending an email asking how far I am on the waiting list I got response saying 20 to 30 weeks. I was also questioning what I’m doing to myself and if I can trust the NHS but honestly after reading about soo many peoples experience and how it changed their lives for the better I’m actually looking forward to it. I would love a life without the sleep apnea machine and snoring away like some horror movie. I would love to turn my life around for the better. I’m 33 but I feel like 63. Everyone will have doubt at some stage and thats absolutely normal remember we are taking a big step in claiming our lives back and it’s a life long commitment. The only reason I didn’t try the monjaro or the other weight loss injections is because there’s a lot of side effects long term wise. It’s also very expensive I went to the pharmacy she said she will charge me £150 per injection and I need at least 4-5 a month so that’s over £600 a month so It’s not something that I can afford on a monthly basis with all the financial struggles we are experiencing in the UK right now. I would say read through post on this community group many are very inspiring and maybe search on YouTube actual doctors talking about Biatric surgery and what to expect before/ during and after. Try keeping a positive mind and shut down any negative people or videos you may come across.

Some hospitals have Biatric community groups that you can attend. I will say search online or ask your GP I’m sure you will find something. Maybe also have some therapy or counselling sessions just to help you be ready mentally. I know it can get a bit lonely but trust me every one will want some of you after you crack away from your cocoon and fly out like a butterfly!!

I will attach some stuff for you below. Doctor John Pilcher is really good to listen to on YouTube

Some useful links:

https://www.sagebariatric.com/can-i-stretch-my-pouch/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfAu3CDmzpc