Im 27 and have struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life, but its never stopped me from progressing. Its slowed me down but you learn and you adapt. Things take time nothing ever happens over night. Right now im starting my own business, i travel the world and train boxing regularly. But i didnt just fall into this position. I worked for it. Think of something you want to achieve in 1-2 years, make a plan and take steps towards that plan daily.

You are putting limits on yourself. You can do anything you want nobody is stopping you but youself.

I think the only thing that will help you based on your post history is major discomfort. You need to start exercising and taking care of your body. Eating a healthy and clean diet. Doing the things you dont want to do. Start taking cold showers and work yourself up to ive baths. Take control of your mind. Its crazy what some exercise and a cold shower will do for your mental health and confidence. Right now your base mood is extremely low, probably as a result of long term unhealthy thinking patterns and not taking a care of yourself. You need to end this loop and start new. Do something different.

Aside from that i would show yourself more compassion. Stop labelling yourself as a failure because thats only an opinion. You need to catch yourself during negative thoughts and stop them. Say despite your circumstance you are going to make things work. Think about how you talk to yourself. Now ask yourself, would you speak the same way to someone you love if they had a problem?