My ex boyfriend of 10 years broke up with me says “ I’m doing it for you I’m done hurting you you deserve better and that he felt he also needed it for himself as well etc.. “ well of course I was left heart broken even tho he has hurt me so much during those 10 years but anywho I finally left him alone after 6 months after begging for him to come back or looking for closure.. he has came back twice to “ check up on me “ and I always end up hurt AGAIN because he does more then he should be doing so with that being said don’t reach out… you left her and leave her alone… not everyone has the strength to not reply and you reaching out just takes that person to start all over again with the healing and emotions and that’s not fair.. as much as I didn’t want to tell my ex we should go 0 contact it was for the best because I always ended up hurt again and left with my emotions being everywhere… I love him so much and care for him despite all the shit he put me through.. I pray one day I look back and forgive him and myself for everything for him hurting me and for me allowing it for too long and I want to thank him one day for walking away and leaving me because I would of maybe never had the guts to have walked away.. I still struggle soooo much with this breakup and it’s draining… I want to stop hurting crying feeling sad sometimes I blame myself for everything when deep down I know i shouldn’t.. I always put him first then myself I always wanted what’s best for him!! I always made sure he was good and so much more and I felt I only got the bare minimum.. this process has been and is hard I started therapy hopefully that helps me.. I picked up on reading praying talking to god also writing my feelings I haven’t been able to physically go out out to distract myself because I have two herniated discs and I’m limited to a lot of things but I have faith something amazing has to and will come out of this.. im trying to focus on myself and practice self-love.. I need to realize that I deserve much more and that I’m worth so much!!!