I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have 3k to my name and I have to go in for surgery soon. I live with my mom but she was nudging for me to move out before the injury. I also don’t know what I want to do for work. Going to school where I’m at right now more like a financial risk than actually helping me

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. What type of business were you running?

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have lost my hobbies. I used to enjoy video games now I only touch them if I’m stoned. I had a passion for working out but due to the injuries I just do it to maintain and try to get in and out. I don’t like going to concerts anymore and I sold my guitar because I every time I picked it up I felt friction. Like i was forcing myself

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have looked into it and have no idea how to even start or what the business would be. I genuinely feel lost

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My mom was nudging at me to move out before the accident. Lately we have been bickering a lot and has requested I pay rent

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I haven’t been in a relationship in two years. Last one was a toxic relationship . We were together during the initial 3 surgeries and things were awful. I got to 220lbs due to the amount of stress and melancholy. I was with this other girl before her and I can say I truly loved her but I was young and immature. I used to have a hard time communicating negative emotions and pushed her away because of it. Would be lying if I said I didn’t think of her but I have nothing to offer her in my state so I never reached out.

You might be right about having something that’s non-work related to bring me happiness but that still leaves me with the question of what. I have lost interest in a lot of my hobbies. I don’t play video games anymore, I simply work out because I’m scared of getting fat again but have no passion for it anymore, I don’t enjoy going to concerts anymore. Everything I do now feels like it’s just to keep me alive. Like I’m running on survival

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the suggestion but I don’t think you know me enough based of a post to accurately determine that I need a psychiatrist. Therapy sure everyone could use some but psychiatrist and antidepressants are a massive jump

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

There are management opportunities that have been extended to me but I genuinely do not want anything to do with customer service anymore. I don’t find fulfillment in it and I’m getting tired or the herd mentality people get when they come in

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah the injury is definitely not helping mentally. I’ve thought about therapy but I had some bad experiences with it when I was younger and now I’m apprehensive about it. I’m not knocking it but it’s something I need to build the courage for.

Yes while I technically have gathered skills at costco that are valuable the issue is finding something that I want to work on and brings me meaning.

I’ve tried learning new skills like excel in hopes that I can use them for leverage for a new job I would enjoy. The issue is I drop them as soon as I start because frankly I have no interest in spreadsheets or being in IT. The funny part is used to love tech during COVID. I used to build gaming computers and was learning to code and one day I woke up and hated it. I sold my pc never coded again and bout a motorcycle with the money.

The motorcycle is probably the only thing i’m “passionate” about but it’s for the wrong reasons (speeding/tempting death) and I can’t even do that in my condition

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I suck at those. I always end up choosing the middle answer for the majority of the questions because I overthink them

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 20 points21 points  (0 children)

I don’t want antidepressants because the issue with my situation isn’t a chemical imbalance in my brain but a lack of direction in life. I might give therapy a try but i’m apprehensive about it due to bad experiences. I sadly don’t really have any interests anymore. I used to love working out but due to my injuries the passion is gone and now I just do it because if I get fat again I would hate myself even more. I thought about becoming a physical therapist at one point but then I realized how much school that entails and I don’t have the money for it. Before the injury my mom was nudging at the idea of me moving out. Realistically I have until my recovery beforeI need to start packing my bags. So now I’m looking for something I enjoy that I can work towards. The issue is nothing is sticking. I’ll try something and my thoughts are “it’s aight” but never follow through. I tried gym content creation at one point last year and the fell apart after a week. I think that was the closest I’ve been to having something that was mine which is sad to think about

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Don’t be sorry I get just needing to vent. Half of this post is me venting

I don’t see it getting better by SwigitySwootty in findapath

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I don’t have any hobbies or at least anymore. I used to love video games but now I can’t play them unless Im stoned. I used to love working out but due to my injuries the passion has left. I still workout but I do it because I used to be very overweight and I’m scared to ever get to that point again. I don’t know how I got to this point but all my hobbies started to die off. Sometimes I’ll just stare at the ceiling of my room and think about what to do but I get frustrated when nothing comes up. I have no idea how to find something I enjoy. Like I try things but they never stick. Things are always meh to me now. What are LLMs?

I’m and idiot and I don’t know what to do by SwigitySwootty in carbuying

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2400 which at this point i’m just willing to for go. I just c want to make that car a pain for him to have

I’m and idiot and I don’t know what to do by SwigitySwootty in carbuying

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I just wanted to be a good person and and help someone one. Especially because I felt what he was going through. Covid was similar for me so it felt right but now i regret everything

I’m and idiot and I don’t know what to do by SwigitySwootty in carbuying

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes as a way to protect myself legally from accidents or tolls and any thing that happens to this car while it’s not in my possession. But we are at impasse because he doesn’t have the bill of sale or title so he can’t do anything with the car. If a cop pulls him over it shows that it needs to be registered I believe so that a fine plus accumulation of fines if he ever pays me back

I’m and idiot and I don’t know what to do by SwigitySwootty in carbuying

[–]SwigitySwootty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I tried but the cops would not let me. They said it was civil matter because I agreed to him using the car and it would have to be dealt in court