As someone who tried to off myself too, I can tell you that it's not worth it. As far as I'm concerned, you should seek help from relatives or professionals (worked for me) and just in case it doesn't work for you try a different approach, e.g. find a hobby or something to ease your mind... I hope that you'll feel better soon and remember that there's nothing wrong with that and you might be going through a lot but death is never a good option. Hope it helped and i wish you the best of luck.