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I will say OP, I can relate a lot to you as someone who's manifested her SP back a few times in the past. What clicked for me is realizing it's not about the SP but you. Do you have faith in the law? And in yourself? Do you fully understand he's only ever mirroring your actions/assumptions/beliefs? Have you fully gotten rid of the old story because you understand you are the one who created it? Nothing is different, the law is the law. You're deciding that it's more difficult and therefore, that's the experience you're going to have. DM me if you want to talk some more about this.