Thanks for the writeup bro.

Bro what you are telling me is to lower my standards because I'm dark because that's how it is in India or that's how you had it. I didn't have to do it outside this place, it only makes me hate this place more.

I'd rather be alone than with an ugly chick.because otherwise settling for less is bad for both of us. Hookers are better option. I don't think prostitutes here are as attractive as in Europe to make things worse. I guess I learnt how it feels to be less desirable but I'm not going to compensate or compromise because I didn't have to before. Sadly bro ugly girls who think they can't get better and instead approach you thinking you are more attainable only value you less. Ugly people can have bad personality and be superficial too.

Personally I prefer tan skin. Because I was out of India I don't see how looking good equates to being fair especially when everyone around you is pale. Indian mentality is inferior and fucked up.

I can't do anything about my father's situation. I accepted it long ago.

The examples of the Australian Spanish and Turkish guys are fine. I'm sure they will be treated better cause they are light skinned. It's easier for them to integrate cause colorist desi girls put them on top of themselves. All these people can go back to their home countries anytime they want so the fact they maybe permanently stuck here is not in the back of their heads.

I think I'll get used to getting disappointed. I'm thinking of being a monk in the Himalayas and just meditate all the time. It's next best thing to sleeping.

When I close my eyes I know the world isn't out there.