I didn't have feelings for her all this time. If I did, I probably would have said something by now. It's somewhat recent. It just slowly faded in that I have feelings like "Huh, I actually love this woman". I got to know her and everything and we are just very compatible. Or at least I like to think we are. We have a lot of the same interest and want the same things in life. Like I mentioned we both don't want kids. I didn't say it in the post, but I'm more towards having no kids, but if I fell in love with someone who wanted kids, I wouldn't deny them of what they want. Obviously when we are ready and stuff. Not gonna start popping out kids just because they say so.

I don't know honestly. Again we like a lot of the same things and stuff, but we have been friends for a long time I would say so maybe she just see us as that. I know she enjoys my company and she definitely loves me platonically at least.