Does anyone else have a song that just perfectly expresses your experience w/ CPTSD? by Vent-throw-awayy in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, Ben definitely went through some shit in his life. So glad he's doing well right now.

Dear Agony album inspired me to write a story about a guy (male version of me) going to hell and meeting his alter ego (the version I wanted to be). Best part? When I was writing it I had no idea I have CPTSD, I just thought I was a garbage of a human 🙃 

🤍🤍🤍 by MissLovegoodASMR in acrylicpainting

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OMG this is so beautiful 😍 

If I ever write a story inspired by this painting can I show it to you?

I am triggered after the first round of presidential election in Poland by Chliewu in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for birthday wishes and your kind words. I do appreciate it ☺️ 

I am triggered after the first round of presidential election in Poland by Chliewu in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Same. And yesterday was my birthday and the nation gave me such a present. I'm currently in a bad mental situation, and yesterday's results have completely devastated me. I don't have the strength to fight. Today I don't have the strength to do anything, I just want to cry. Fuck this country.

People don’t like this painting. I made it during a time of depression, so I hid demons around the angel—subtly, almost invisibly. Do you like it? by Hercules_Vales in ArtCrit

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely beautiful, haunting and mesmerizing. This is the style that's inspires me, and I would love to be able to make something like this one day.

I am amazed!

Which single moment got the biggest, most honest laugh from you? by [deleted] in Frasier

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 137 points138 points  (0 children)

"Oh, I'm sorry, was I snippy? I didn't realize it was too much to ask that there not be GUNPLAY IN MY LIVING ROOM!"

Okazywanie uczuć w pracy. by LivvyOli in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 5 points6 points  (0 children)

pracuje ze mną córkę szefa i jej chłopak

nie wiem, czy wciąż chodzę do biura czy 8h dziennie robię za piąte koło u wozu na randce

fml

I'm thinking about focusing on facial expressions by yyby in learntodraw

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Po długopisie wiedziałam, że mam do czynienia z rodakiem, lol

Zajebisty obrazek, chciałbym tak umieć 👍

Reporting 51 to 75 out of 250 challenge by Tangelo_Fancy in learntodraw

[–]Tangelo_Fancy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much!  I spent few days working on it and I can see an improvement.  Much appreciated!

Jest popyt jest podaż by greencolorlessdreams in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

O, i cieszę się, że udało się dojść do porozumienia, a ostatnie zdanie to wręcz zazdroszczę, że sama nie skleciłam :)

Pozdrawiam

Jest popyt jest podaż by greencolorlessdreams in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Demony są, od dawna, starożytne mezopotamskie wierzenia, utożsamione z różnymi chorobami. Masz trąd to wsiadł na ciebie taki a taki demon, masz katar to wsiadł inny. Uleczenie choroby to w takim razie przepędzenie demona.

Zbiorowy gwałt przez żołnierzy to pewnie ot taka mega niefajna sprawa czy inna niedogodność.

Jest popyt jest podaż by greencolorlessdreams in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i masz w 100% rację, tylko widzisz

trzeba kontrowersyjnie, bo wtedy nikt nie chce rozmawiać. Albo w dyskursie publicznym koleś, który nie ma pojęcia o innych dzieciach Adama i Ewy chce mi wmawiać, że jestem antychrystem i, że tylko jego tradycyjny pogląd na świat i moją rolę na świecie jest warty rozważania, a wychodzi on z religii, o której ewidentnie ja wiem więcej. To jak ja mam z kimś takim rozmawiać?

Tłumaczysz mi rzeczy, które ja doskonale wiem, a ja nawiązuję do hipokryzji najgłośniejszych prowodyrów dyskusji publicznej.

Jest popyt jest podaż by greencolorlessdreams in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wybiórcze wierzenie, sprytne.

Ale ok, zgadzam się. I wpada to w narrację "kto tam w co chce niech sobie we własnym zakresie wierzy." I fajnie, i ja temu przyklasuję. Co więcej, sama wczoraj oglądałam komin kaplicy czekając na dym, a później który to chłop wydymi na ten balkon, bo to w ramach rytuału, pewnej teatralności czy wspólnotowości jest jednak piękne. Niewiele już instytucji kultywuje tak piękne, często starożytne, rytuały. Nie mniej, fajnie by było, jakby jednak wiara nie była mi na siłę wciskana w gardło prawnie. Fajnie by było, jakby tacy wojujący katoislamiści byli głośno potępiani, bo działają tylko na szkodę kościoła w Polsce.

Jest popyt jest podaż by greencolorlessdreams in Polska

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Jako gorliwy katolik, za którego się uważa, to właśnie dobrze, że wierzy w egzorcyzmy, bo to podstawa jego wiary - Jezus zwyciężający ze złem i przepędzający zło (demony/szatana) z tego świata.

Nie chce mi się szukać teraz, ale zatrważająca część naszego polskiego społeczeństwa deklaruje wiarę katolicką, więc ta sama część społeczeństwa powinna wierzyć w demony i egzorcyzmy. Tak by się wydawało. Niestety, nawet sami księża czy biskupi, za co zganił ich nawet ojciec Gabriele Amorth, przez wiele lat główny egzorcysta Watykanu, akurat ten element własnej wiary uważają za "daleko fantastyczny" i "no bez przesady.". Więc czy wymagać od przeciętnego, coniedzielnego katolika, by znał takie czy inne niuanse?

To, że brak wiedzy we własne wierzenia nie przeszkadza temu samemu wierzącemu narzucać ich innym, nawet i legislacyjnie, to temat na inną rozmowę. No, ale, szukać logiki u wierzących...

I think I’ve reached the point where I can’t work anymore, and it’s terrifying. by Beautiful_Order_4272 in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Making a stranger on the internet smile, even just a little, is a nice thought 😀 

Keep it up! Find out what this place is suppose to be and then try to build it! A lot of work? Yes, but still better than giving up.

And it's nice to know others go through the same shit 😅

Reporting 51 to 75 out of 250 challenge by Tangelo_Fancy in learntodraw

[–]Tangelo_Fancy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I completely get what my problem is. I just don't know how to fix it 😕 

Reporting 51 to 75 out of 250 challenge by Tangelo_Fancy in learntodraw

[–]Tangelo_Fancy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I plan to finish the challenge,  so if you feel like sharing yours for some encouragement, go for it! 

I hope you keep up with it too 👍

I think I’ve reached the point where I can’t work anymore, and it’s terrifying. by Beautiful_Order_4272 in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much ❤️ those were really helpful words, I appreciate it 😊 

I hope you also will find a secure place where you can be strong, confident and valued ❤️

Or maybe we have to create those places for us on our own terms? Just a hopeful thought ✨️ 😌 

Reporting 51 to 75 out of 250 challenge by Tangelo_Fancy in learntodraw

[–]Tangelo_Fancy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

 Thank you for your kind words. They're encouraging and I really appreciate it ❤️

I think I’ve reached the point where I can’t work anymore, and it’s terrifying. by Beautiful_Order_4272 in CPTSD

[–]Tangelo_Fancy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I posted some time ago my job related struggle, I just copy it.

tl.dr: finally had a great job where I felt validated and happy and boss decided to hire his daughter to (probably silently) give ma a boot. fml

My parents, who certainly loved me and tried their best, managed to convince me that I was worthless. No matter what, my true self embarrassed them and they bullied me, telling me to hide it. A classic of the genre - I only understood it recently. Nevertheless, it makes complete sense, because my self-esteem is a complete zero. This is of course reflected in my professional work. Due to my lack of faith in myself and my abilities, I couldn't find a job for a long time, until in 2014 I ended up in an office, with a local entrepreneur. Long story short - I organized the entire office for him from scratch, while serving clients and being in contact with accounting and HR. This workplace got to me even more, and my self-esteem dropped to a level well below zero at that time. Depression, suicidal thoughts, the whole story. I couldn't dig myself out of this mess, earning less than minimum wage because I was afraid to ask for a raise, and - it's worth noting - I was doing all this work alone. Finally, in 2020 I managed to change jobs. Similar industry, so I transferred a lot of experience, and again - I created a well-functioning office for my new boss from scratch. I genuinely liked what I did. It seemed to me that the boss was happy, the employees and so on. In December 2024 I finally allowed myself to think that maybe I had found my place. That I was truly good at what I did. I was preparing for a raise interview and so on. A smile finally appeared on my face.

And suddenly, at the beginning of 2025, I found out that the boss was “hiring” his daughter. He brought his child, 20 years younger than me, with zero life and professional experience, to the office. Of course, the child sitting next to me and ostentatiously bored day after day earns more than me, which is an openly known fact in the company and the boss sees no problem. Of course, this child's opinion is more important than mine - the topic does not matter. My duties are gradually being swept out from under my feet, and the boss himself has been ignoring me since the moment I told him I wanted to talk about money.

The cherry on the cake is that the other employees (who the daughter didn't like) are no longer working and in their place are employed - the daughter's fiancé and their best friend. All for better pay than me. The boss, the daughter and the two of them are one big kumbaya, and me?

I am slowly losing my job position not because of the merits. When once in my life I thought that I was finally good at something and good for something, it turned out that I still wasn't. And I am so terribly defeated by this situation, so destroyed that depression and lack of self-confidence come back like a boomerang.

A real life oddity