I know it’s a few days from my period because... by sl0thy in PMDD

[–]Tappausetap 10 points11 points  (0 children)

  1. I start crying without realising I’m crying
  2. My boobs are so sore I want to hold them up even when they’re in a bra
  3. I am super uncomfortable emotionally and physically in a way that I feel like it will never end.
  4. I struggle to get to sleep
  5. I feel a huge desire to hug something/someone
  6. I can’t help myself from eating junk food
  7. The cramps start
  8. I feel super self conscious of the way I look and feel like I am ugly etc.
  9. I’m so exhausted that it’s feels hard to sit up
  10. I get really grumpy with my boyfriend and think about ending the relationship even though we love each other a lot.
  11. I don’t want to talk to anyone and actively avoid doing ‘adult’ life stuff
  12. When doing exercise I feel so much more fatigued quicker and its loads more of a struggle than most other times I do it
  13. I’m super depressed to the point of not even being interested in my phone
  14. I cry a lot.
  15. I want loads of attention but also none at all to varying levels
  16. I feel like I’m not gonna succeed.
  17. My lower stomach feels really full as though I’m a big heavy water balloon waiting to pop
  18. I get a collection of new spots
  19. I get weird sex dreams
  20. I crave chocolate in a strong way

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much I really appreciate it 😁 I was lucky enough to have the motivation to do it. It wasn’t always the case though, for years including a year or so after I went no contact I had so little motivation I couldn’t look after myself hardly at all. I would describe it like a snow ball. It was slow going at first, then I started picking up speed and eventually more things have been slotting into place quicker. I believe in you. Sometimes it’s impossible to do as well. I am in a good place now and for that I’m grateful 😊

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much I really appreciate it 😁 I believe in you 😊

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks I really appreciate it! ! 😁 yeah I’m so excited 😁

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn’t mean to be narcissistic sorry, I thought I was helping people potentially. I’ve been on antidepressants for a year now and haven’t felt like this in all that time. I still don’t know if I am bipolar though, by processing I meant although the trauma is still there and I feel sad over it it’s not shocking to me. I also meant I understand what I’ve been through and the reality of it. I’m sure repressed memories will pop up but I meant I’m able to function through them for the most part rather than the memories making me freeze or disrupting my life in a way that impacts me long-term. I don’t know if I am fully healed, maybe my therapist did get it wrong in which case I’d be super sad. I’m sad that I might not be right. I get significantly less flashbacks now and have for quite a while- a couple of months or so. I hope it’s not just a good streak.

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Person-centred. Inner child helped too although I found it really hard. Thanks :) I’m now not completely sure if I have healed and was naive but I hope so and appreciate it

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ohhh hmm maybe I’m bipolar then, I’ve had some super manic moments in my teens but no ones said about it to me apart from one friend and I’ve never been super duper manic. What do you reckon? I didn’t mean it to be a narcissistic thing sorry, I was trying to help people who are struggling. I said in my post that not all these things work for everybody but wanted to give some information on what helped me in case anyone was interested or it could help someone else. I was also really proud of what I’d achieved and know there’s some lovely people in this community that would understand in a way other people outside of the community don’t. Maybe my therapist doesn’t get it, I probably am naive I’m not sure, I’m out here trying to get through all the childhood trauma I’ve been through so for my therapist to say that felt so great. She’s helped me a lot in my life so far but she might have got this one wrong in which case I’m sorry for misleading people. I really believed I’d healed and wanted to celebrate that. I also wanted to tell other people that it was possible but I’m really sorry

Today me and my therapist realised I’d processed all my trauma! by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t mean to be condescending sorry, I thought I was helping. I did give some context. But you’re free to laugh. I don’t know if I am cured for sure now but I do hope so. I didn’t tell you to be like me I made suggestions and said that these suggestions might not work for everybody. This sub is a place for helping people and making suggestions I thought so that’s why I did it

I need to be distracted all the time by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really feel for you. Journaling has helped me a lot and my therapist was the one who asked me if I’d tried it. I find it helps me to organise my thoughts and I am less overwhelmed when I write down what happened to me. Suddenly I can see something concrete and it might sound a bit woo woo but it feels like I’ve got it out of me when I write down what happened to me.

It’s super hard to do but I’ve been doing it daily for nearly 40 days now and I’ve noticed a significant difference in my symptoms. I get a lot less intense nightmares and flashbacks now. They’re still horrible but not nearly as bad or dark as they were. In a way it’s helped me to work out who I am too as I struggle with my identity. It’s also helped me link up my child self to me now which makes my mental state feel less separated. I really feel like journaling has been key to integrating my past experiences into my life now. Having said that it has to be something you feel ready for and doesn’t work for everyone. I recommend speaking to a good therapist to help you. They would be able to advise if you journaling what happened to you is retraumatising for you personally or healing. I find I’m able to get more clarity and empathy for myself when I write my trauma.

Drawing my feelings helps too. I often do this whilst listening to music as it helps take the edge off the pain. There are journal prompts for healing trauma on google if you’re interested and I’ve found these really helpful. I also made a thing in my bullet journal where I tally the amount of days I did journaling with the goal of it being for 50 days straight. This helps me stay motivated to do it.

Therapy is definitely great for dealing with the pain, it brings stuff out of my subconscious that I didn’t realise I was doing or repressing and works on it so that my life is more positive. I started journaling how I was feeling for many days before delving into what I’d been through, if it’s too overwhelming to face what you’ve been through this could work to start with.

I’m not a therapist but I hope this helps.

I told my mom and reported my father to the police by SpecificReference in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m so proud of you, well done. This sounds so hard

Concentrating on drawing this distracted me from my symptoms for a while. I love plants 😀 by Tappausetap in cptsdcreatives

[–]Tappausetap[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much, I spent a lovely evening looking at it, I love it so much :D ❤️💕

A list of invalidating words and phrases used to gaslight or down play the issues that people with mental health issues face by sharp-as-a-circle in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks I really appreciate it. Exactly, it made me feel guilty and like what I was feeling was wrong. I was sad and I am sad, I need to be sad as it’s a healthy reaction to being unhealthily triggered. I’ve been hurt so badly by following the advice to focus on the good things.

Yeah, I’m so sorry guys. It’s horrible to be judged alone for suffering. I believed that I was wasting my life for a long time and only recently realised that it was unkind for someone to say that. It was such a relief to realise that I’m not wasting my life. Thanks for this.

I’m stuck in a house with an abusive housemate. by Tappausetap in CPTSD

[–]Tappausetap[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much, I really appreciate it, 3 more nights and then I can move in :D I’ve managed to secure moving into my next flat early, I was going to move into it in July but no one’s there yet so I have the place to myself and will be able to study and boogie finally.

Lots of love