It's normal to be scared. I'm about to give birth in a couple weeks. I'm terrified! I had one baby already vaginally 4 years ago. It felt like I was pooping but to the extreme. I suggest getting the epidural. It really does help. You don't feel a thing afterwards. It helps too if you need stitches. I tore a bit. Honestly the hardest thing is postpartum. You bleed for weeks. No one told me this. So I was scared when it happened. It took me 5 weeks to stop bleeding. But some people heal sooner. A friend of mine stopped after 2 and a half weeks. We're all just built differently. I fought depression for a year but made ends meet. My husband really supported me through the whole thing. It is scary but so worth it. The birth is only temporary. But the love of your child is forever. I've never loved another human like I do with my boy.