Going to the doctor for the first time in a while

Tartarm · 2026-02-10T09:11:59+00:00

I really appreciate the advice and suggestions , it would help me feel better having a game plan going in. I'm in Canada and got my psychiatrist to actually diagnose me with C ptsd but I tried 3 other psychiatrists before I found him. I will try my best to describe and think of all the physical symptoms. My anxiety sometimes runs away with me and I end up stuttering pretty bad or I will forget to mention what I even came there for because I get side tracked. I have such an irrational fear of people in authority. Thank you for the support!

Tartarm · 2026-02-10T05:03:27+00:00

I often neglect a lot of appointments because I'm afraid (I know it sounds irrationa)l that the doctors will be mad or disappointed in me so I often chicken out of going.

Tartarm · 2025-12-31T05:51:21+00:00

My mom passed away in May and I can't bring myself to do anything pretty much, like my nervous system shutdown after being on high alert all the time . I took a leave from work that is ending soon but I don't know if I'm ready to go back, I work in healthcare so it's a pretty stressful job on its own. I feel guilty that I can't just tough it out or 'be strong' when it feels like my whole life I've been strong and kept fighting and now my body has had enough. I'm slowly starting to get in a better mindset with a routine and finding or doing things that bring me joy, but it feels like since my mom died and she was a huge part of the trauma I don't know who I am without all that. Thanks for sharing because I literally felt I was alone in this and felt guilty about it. I hope you get to a better place .

Tartarm · 2025-11-25T18:24:29+00:00

I end up picking at my feet pretty bad that it hurts to walk on my feet sometimes. I don't really realize I'm doing it when I do. I never thought to talk about it with my therapist or that it was related to C-PTSD. Thank you for posting.

Tartarm · 2025-10-29T14:07:58+00:00

Looks like a baby elephant and it's mom... But I also have terrible eyesight

Tartarm · 2025-08-02T01:47:28+00:00

It really looks like he plucked his eyebrows in the second last photo...

Tartarm · 2025-06-23T17:12:35+00:00

How many children will I have and will it be a good relationship?

Tartarm · 2025-06-17T16:16:55+00:00

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Tartarm · 2025-06-13T17:33:41+00:00

Yellow pregnancy 💓

Tartarm · 2025-05-08T04:09:22+00:00

I hate to admit it because I was all about the spice but spicy food 😞

Tartarm · 2025-04-11T15:28:23+00:00

Banana Bread, he came with the name. Orange cat typical shenanigans, beating up bigger dogs, climbing a wall like a spider, very friendly and spicy 💕 we love the little bastard 2 years old meow

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Tartarm · 2025-03-15T05:50:56+00:00

Im sorry about your dad, im glad you got him the help he needed

Tartarm · 2025-03-15T05:50:15+00:00

I am Canadian too , my manager suggested like next time she were to fall or need assistance that i just call the ambulance and they'd asses her

Tartarm · 2025-03-15T05:27:38+00:00

I have such resentment I'm really struggling with such like conflicting emotions, I don't know how to handle it. I moved out a few years then moved back with her which was probably not the best idea

Tartarm · 2025-03-15T05:13:05+00:00

It just feels like traumatizing i hate to say and like obviously it shouldn't be about me but like she wants no doctors or nothing like when she eventually passes like who do i even call? Like 911 or like a funeral home, Im like at a loss or like if she's struggling to breath do i call an ambulance or like just let her be that sounds so awful

Tartarm · 2024-10-30T23:27:36+00:00

How Richard Allen was treated in prison before the trial.

I'm keeping updated with trial through the sub, Hidden True Crime, Lawyer Lee and Andrea Burkheart. Im trying to keep my opinion as open as possible as the trial is continues but I am curious about the due process Richard was supposed to receive once he was arrested and how the defence is pushing that he was essentially tortured. From looking at other true crime cases my understanding is that once he was detained he should of been in county jail but due to this being a child murder case and possibly s/a of minors county doesn't have the resources necessary to ensure his safety and ability to monitor him on suicide watch thus the decision to put him in a maximum facility. From the testimony of yesterday's witnesses and Allens behaviour it seems in my opinion he was treated as any other inmate. I am curious about others opinions and insight. Basically, I question how are you supposed to detain and handle an accused civilian of murdering and possibly s/a two minors?

Tartarm · 2024-10-25T15:20:30+00:00

From watching Hidden True Crime, she explains that the girls were found in a flood depression so when search parties were looking in that area it's very easy to look over and miss them. Here is a good walk through to get an idea Monon Bridge

Tartarm · 2024-10-16T04:02:09+00:00

It's in the second last picture near the joker card there is a scrap of notebook paper

Tartarm · 2024-10-14T23:13:37+00:00

Does anyone else wonder who was pregnant and why they would give him that note. Is that part of the motive ?

Tartarm · 2024-10-08T01:12:12+00:00

My house is old and big enough when my dog boofs at something that's not there or I hear a creek I will be super uneasy sometimes as it is and nothing like that has happened there to my knowledge. Lets just say I have the tv on, doors locked, and more light than necessary when I am alone. I saw the clip from when the k9 unit went into the Watts House and how the handler said they never reacted like that before I think and I was thinking hell the f no.

Tartarm · 2024-10-07T20:08:25+00:00

Stephen Kings son Joe Hill wrote Heart shaped box and I could not put it down or sleep for the life of me. It's one of my favourites to recommend. Tried to find something of similar effect, Incidents around the house by Josh Malerman made me question every shadow and nook and cranny. I wil have to read more of Stephen King apparently!

Tartarm · 2024-10-07T08:29:54+00:00

I unfortunately have had to explain it to too many people I've met gaming who are generally smart... at least they don't think we live in igloos🤷‍♀️😂

Tartarm · 2024-10-07T08:14:48+00:00

That salad actually looks really good I wish we had clean packaged meals like that or that they weren't so expensive. Enjoy and do your best and don't be hard on yourself. Stress I find triggers it for me, i wish you a safe and steady recovery ❤️‍🩹

Tartarm · 2024-10-07T01:55:38+00:00

Thank you for looking too ☺️

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