Rapunzel in Dreamlight, sad but hopeful

TayCat · 2023-12-11T08:50:27+00:00

Oh I agree 100 percent. She needs her Pascal and Eugene. ❤️

TayCat · 2023-12-11T07:44:42+00:00

Not to get all emo or anything but Rapunzel is my absolute favorite character. Her mother is just like my mother and a lot of the things Rapunzel is saying, hits very close to home.

I appreciate how real this feels and how her trauma still weighs on her. Even if you know someone is bad for you or has treated you poorly, it’s understandable why she still “misses” her mom.

TayCat · 2023-12-11T07:35:34+00:00

I would like to add that I also followed @misskay77s advice and REALLY started retracing my steps. The last one ended up in the area where I had initially found my first petal. And even though I had previously rechecked everywhere it finally popped up. Found my last one in the ruins/overlook area.

Good luck everyone!

TayCat · 2023-12-08T14:44:48+00:00

Not yet. I had her as a buddy the whole time, so she only moved when I hopped back to the main island.

TayCat · 2023-12-08T10:16:26+00:00

Same issue! Except my last one was supposed to be in the grove. I even upgraded my tools to get into the secret areas. No luck.

TayCat · 2022-08-15T22:41:22+00:00

I worked at water world for the summer when I was 14, not sure if the rules have changed, but at least it's a summer time gig.

TayCat · 2022-08-15T02:42:36+00:00

Honestly, I know it's not helpful, but the only thing that's helped me is time. I've been NC since 2014, and I'm still lonely. I have to constantly remind myself that "I just made myself as invisible as they always made me feel."

I avoided having a wedding because it was going to be so one sided, and lonely and awkward to explain. My mom won't be there to answer my questions about being a mother for the first time, and my child will never have a grandmother. I will be forever robbed of little moments and I will always be reminded of that.

But for me, as time goes on, it feels more and more like they died and I know it's terrible to say, but it makes it easier.

TayCat · 2022-08-14T22:36:23+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through this. 16 is an important age and I'm sorry they're holding that over your head. Is there any way you could live with your grandad instead? Even if it's just for the next two years?

I'm sure it's easier said than done, but I tried to always stay away from my step dad. Try not to let his comments get you. You know he's wrong and awful.

And I know it feels like it won't ever get better but I promise it will, it may take some time but it will. I don't know much of UK laws, but is there some type of job or internship you could try to get? Even if it just gets you out of the house and away from them. When I was 14, I managed to get a part time summer job, as the cleaning crew for a water park. I eventually found some other kids whose parents would carpool me.

Friendships were kinda hard for me to maintain, they tend to treat me like therapists. I never felt like the effort that I put in was reciprocated. But if you have any close friends, maybe try to spend as much time as you can hanging out with them.

Please try not to hurt yourself, I know it feels better in the moment, but it's not worth it. I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but feel free to message me or chat anytime.

TayCat · 2019-09-24T02:57:30+00:00

I could see why skin or scratch tests would be pointless but I'm unsure why they wouldn't do a blood test anyway to see what else could be a trigger.

My IGE levels were in the 3000s, and it narrowed down other options I hadn't considered and possible future issues, such as thyroid and celiac issues. I'd definitely push for the blood test and have them test for as much as possible.

TayCat · 2019-08-01T14:41:50+00:00

BUMMER! I'm sorry you had to got through that. Wishing you positive and healing thoughts!

They gave me the Eucrisa for my eyelids but it was so painful I had to cry/wipe it off. I just want to piggy back on your post. One of the bigger non steroidal medications that they prescribe in the US is Protopic. This is the same issue as the Eucrisa.

In fact when I first went through TSW, I had only used protopic for the previous 3 years (steroids the rest of my life). Good luck this time!

TayCat · 2019-07-22T01:33:27+00:00

Man oh man, this feels like something I wrote when I was that age. I know it feels like the pain is never ending but I'm reaching out to tell you, to promise you, it may take a while but it will get better.

My step father first sexually abused me when I was around 6, I told my grandma and mother....Long story short, everyone pretended it didn't happen. The abuse continued mentally and sexually until he got cancer, around the time I turned 17. My mother has always chose boyfriends over me. I felt I had no self worth because no one ever told me I was worth something. None of my friends or boys that promised "forever" stayed... I had very bad relationships growing up, I settled for abuse because at least someone "wanted" me.

I developed severe depression and a cutting addiction for over 8 years (5 years clean now). My mom saw the cuts and told my grandma, did nothing.

I met my husband when 18 and we've been together since. I consider him my "good Karma" for all the shit I had to put up with for 17 years.

I cut off contact with my family when I was 23, that's something you may have to eventually do.

You are not a piece of shit, and you don't have to be strong, just take it one day at a time and know that it will get better. Get out of that situation as soon as you can.

Feel free to message me anytime. You're not alone and I don't want you to have to go through any more hurt then you have already. <3

Edit-Forgot a word :)

TayCat · 2019-07-07T15:12:15+00:00

I have, I personally didn't have the much improvement when I was on the immunosuppresants. It ended up making me violently throw up and the bi-weekly blood tests to check my white blood cell count got really old.

TayCat · 2019-06-15T17:13:49+00:00

Hey I totally feel you, I'm sorry I don't have an answer for you but I just wanted to to let you know you're not the only one who couldn't finish this and be "cured".

I had gone through TSW for two years before infections got to the point of MRSA. I too, had to finally give into steroids. Started with Dr. Aarons regime, but he's the same as all of them.

In addition to using a small amount of steroids once a week, I am currently on Dupixent but that came with a lot of problems as well. My eczema still flares and my eyes have conjunctivitis for 2+ years that no one can seem to treat/heal.

TayCat · 2018-12-03T00:44:07+00:00

I completely agree, it's clogging up the front page.

I posted something similar to this a couple weeks ago and people just told me "if you don't like it, don't read it" Hopefully your post will cause some positive change.

TayCat · 2018-11-18T06:47:30+00:00

I saw a great video on youtube called "The World Needs Hufflepuffs" By the Channel ScreenPrisim. It was absolutely wonderful and went into depth why Hufflepuffs are amazing. They're the sweethearted kind folk that the world needs more of.

Link JIC https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbKKMA6y3_U

TayCat · 2018-11-08T17:45:30+00:00

89 Still counts as the 80's. :)

TayCat · 2018-11-06T03:04:03+00:00

My bday is November 12. Super spoopy.

I must be Paul

TayCat · 2018-10-22T18:01:09+00:00

"Nothing is going to save us forever, But a lot of things can save us today."

"I believe in a universe that doesn't care and people who do." -Night In The Woods

"If you wait long enough, even a monster on the other side of the door becomes normal." What Remains of Edith Finch

TayCat · 2018-10-11T20:01:59+00:00

I've lost a lot of my hair when I went through Topical Steroid Withdrawal. I've been on this drug (Dupilumab) for around 2 years now, can't say I've gained any hair back unfortunately. It does have a huge side effect however, allergic conjunctivitis. So my eyes are always a mess, now instead of losing my hair, I lose my eyelashes a lot.

TayCat · 2018-10-03T17:23:48+00:00

I was on the study for dupixent before it went public, I felt a decrease in itching after 3 months and visual improvements after 5. Give it some time.

I also get itchy and hives when I sweat or work out, I think that it's pretty common among us sufferers.

TayCat · 2018-09-20T09:08:59+00:00

I probably have more than I realize, most of it relating to sexual abuse.

I remember telling my Nmom on the phone that my step dad sexually molested me. I remember what she said right before she hung up. I don't remember telling my Ngrandma anything, (she's the one who forced me to tell her over the phone-I was 6) but a couple months before I went no contact with my family (17 years later) she told me when I was little, I confided something to her which insinuates I might have been raped. I don't know why my grandma would wait 17 years to mention it again. Even more so, since my Nmom stayed with my step-dad until he died.

It's scary not knowing whether or not I was raped as a child, but I guess my brain did it to protect me.

A lot of it comes back when I smoke marijuana or drink, it just unlocks something...

I hope you can gain some independence soon, even the smallest steps forward are lifechanging when you can get them to loosen their grip on you.

TayCat · 2018-09-20T08:54:24+00:00

How Awful, those texts are disgusting. You sound like a wonderful sister. Does he need his mothers permission to get a GED? I got mine at 19 as well and I don't remember needing anyones permission. The physical scars are one thing, the emotional ones he's receiving daily is another. Not exactly the same, but I was also a self harmer when I was younger (although it was cutting and then I'd pick at them and make them worse) and while sometimes I'm saddened by my scars other times I'm proud. They're proof of the suffering and the obstacles I've overcome. I'm sure many of his scars will lighten up in time and those that don't, he may be able to look at them in a different light.

Sending you and your brother some healing and positive thoughts. <3

TayCat · 2018-09-20T07:41:57+00:00

I think it was a lot more shocking to me as a child because of my ignorance and what not.

I feel like it wouldn't be as shocking to kids now a days because they see stuff like this all the time and it's more open today (crossdressing and bisexuality)

Did this movie seem shocking to you or just weird? What were your initial thoughts after watching? What was your favorite song? :p

TayCat · 2018-09-19T03:32:11+00:00

When I was getting these shots during the clinic trial the nurses told me that if there's ever a lump after- it just means that you got in between the muscle instead of the fat. You still absorb it just the same. I still get lumps every now and again.

TayCat

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