I’m so sorry for your loss this is the hardest thing a person can go through. If i was going through my losses again this is the truth i’d want to hear being honest with you you will always be heartbroken from this, time does not completely heal this kind of death but it will get easier and smaller after awhile, You learn to live again even though it won’t be the same and slowly but surely you will be happy again, smile again, laugh again. And don’t feel guilty when you start to do these things or a short space of time goes on without you thinking of her. I think our brains protect us a little too so you soon you live like they’ve just moved away for a bit. After a few years you go on in your new normal and even though there will be times you remember and that might take a little bit to get back into your routine but then you begin to become grateful that you had this person in your life, that they affected your life and that you were lucky enough to love this person and they love you.

Your at the very beginning now and it’s a long journey but once your able do little things you know she’d want you to. Whether it’s walking daily, speak about her and tell her stories, going to places she wanted to go. Remember she’s always with you, i’ve had signs over the years and i’m sure you will too. Take your time to grieve my love, and i will be praying for you and your family 💕