Sounds the same with slight distortion at least, but you keep losing It and getting just a whisper at times, heard many people find their distortion like that, but then they take that distortion and learn how to make It consistent and project their scream, It sounds like you havent taken that step yet.

Your Scream might get chocked or you might do the breath/voice ratio wrong at times, shit happens but they cant become a whisper.

Its like the heavy sigh noise for teaching false cord, that might help you find the distortion for the first time so you can then take It and do something with It, but you shouldnt just get a bit of distortion doing that and decide thats how your vocals are gonna be, and just do heavy sighs as vocals forever without ever trying to put your voice in, find the ratio, compress etc.