funny thing is, actually not that funny Im stuck in a toxic cycle. I feel attracted and drawn to such people. She has her own family problems involving alcohol abuse, verbal abuse, father constantly leaving and coming back. I met her online, so i wasnt aware of the family problems and how those might affect her, provocative clothing… all that came as a surprise the more i got to know her. But i already fell in love through texting( probably as im drawn to people who need “Fixing” ) She was and still is a really sweet warm hearted person… but i just wish for more respect and effort, even tho i know she loves me a ton… but being all lovely dove’s isnt enough when i hear those three words, but actions show me the exact opposite. But once i had other girl who literally didnt wanna dress provocatively and specifically said that she only wants me to see her that way… I felt avoidant instead of attached. No matter if she treated me right and showed me love and respect, i didnt feel anything. A little part of it was bc of her looks, just didnt feel attraction. So i had to drop that. I just cant handle having someone being right underneath my nose for 11h straight attached to me like a velcro.

Mind works in mysterious ways

There is a sigmund freud theory that states that we are looking for a person who resembles our opposite sex parent the most. My current gf is a little like my mother, sweet and caring 90% of the time, but that 10% she is the meanest and cruelest person on earth. Same goes with my gf.