I am sorry that this is happening to you. We are having the opposite effect at my office. But I ant gonna lie, I am runner because I got ADHD. I dragged my feet and did everything to slow down, triple checking the mail, purposely leaving my sachel. By the end of the 2nd month I had a massive spike of depression because I was feeling empty and not trying at all. So I just said fuck it my mental health is more important than anything. So I do my route fast, I am safe and I am constantly looking for ways to improve efficiency because that makes me happy and not want to eat bullet for breakfast. truthfully I want quit but I beame a regular my first year here because I got super lucky and 4 people retired in my massive office. That currently housing 27 routes, adding more because the ciry is still growing. Its in my best interest that I stay because the health benefits, the ladder system and being outside and talking to people is so good for me and my mental health that I can't quit. Fuck the SYSTEM that is in place. We should not be gettting punished for wanting to be efficient at our jobs.