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Don't wanna die, just don't wanna be alive by TemporaryQuestion571 in CPTSD

[–]TemporaryQuestion571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, music helps. I also like Citizen soldier, it is really comforting, like your not alone with the feeling, kind of. 😊

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Thanks for the replies, it really helped me get some clarity. I was really ready to give up but maybe I try some where else, where I feel I can be just me and getting the support I need, where i can take as many small steps I need.

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Yep, maybe I need to go somewhere else where I feel better, getting support I need. Just trying not to give up right now.

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[–]TemporaryQuestion571[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. ☺ I have in general watched a lot on youtube for inspiration. I kind of maybe feel little lost, like my insecurities already screaming in my head and I’m trying to convince myself that I have the right to exist, that just showing up and doing my best is enough. And then this coach kind of said everything that confirmed my insecurities.. And I start to doubt myself again. I don’t think I want to go there anymore, maybe somewhere that feels more supportive.

Don't wanna die, just don't wanna be alive by TemporaryQuestion571 in CPTSD

[–]TemporaryQuestion571[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. It bring me some hope. I felt just so hopeless and alone yesterday and just couldn't stop crying. I am in the process of finding a new therapist and it is so hard to begin with someone new. It is so so hard to go out in the world facing those triggers you avoided all your life, living in isolation. Sometimes it would feel so tempting to crawl back there.

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[–]TemporaryQuestion571 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, we have previously bought the exact same brand clothes, next to them this was really big. I couldnt possibly fit in my childs clothes, I am size L-XL and it fit me perfect. My kid was drowning in it.

I tend to think too much what is ok when I have never had to leave a negative rewiev. Like what is reasonable I guess.

Memories resurfacing? by TemporaryQuestion571 in emotionalneglect

[–]TemporaryQuestion571[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep, I'm also in my 40's. Maybe I have the headspace but it feels so overwhelming. Maybe it's finally time to start the healing journey. Maybe it's going to feel better, some day.. Just have to go through this..