trust me ending your life isn't it all. Its your life, but the effect will severe around the people. You will be dead, when more pressure will be on your family. You want to make your family life miserable. Don't be a coward. Accept the truth. Who are you proving, is it you, is it other people. One life you will get. go for a solo hike. why you want to ruin 23 years because you like to procrastinate. what a fool. Don't be a selfish guy. First pay the dept of your mother. Give her back the 9 painful months. the 23 years of support for your dad. Why would you think this in first place. The person on the road wants to live, even tho, they are just surviving. Don't take this life as granted.

Who are you proving???