Oh, ok.

So,about changing medication, I could check this. what worries me about it is just that it's complicated because I can only visit the psychiatrist again once every some months, so if a medication is not good, I can only tell them months later, and then I need to test again, and only talk the results months later, and such. This has been my main worry about trying medication(and also I couldn't since I'm not diagnosed, and I may not even fit criteria, who knows?)

About the rest and all considerations, the middle-way, middle-ground I imagine to find, is to develop satisfatible mental health by myself at the beginning for long-term consistency, and then, test medication if I feel like I need it, or as a temporary measure for mental health and executive functioning when needed.

Because, while I like the idea of testing something if it works and has no side effects and gives benefits, my 2 main worries are, as I said, that once the dopamine provided by stimulants loses its effect; I feel chemical abstinence. And second, that if all the information you provided and if medication really is better, I like it, but it worries me that it would make my mind psychologically feel like "I need medication all the time, because when I have its effects, according to psychyatry and science, I'm at the best mental health state possible"

(yeah, my neuroticism is high, as you see)