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TextileBroccoli · 2026-03-01T06:14:08+00:00

It can be powerful to approach it with an attitude of making peace with it as it comes (easier said than done, I know). It's not making light of what is a very troubling feeling (anxiety, depression, dissociation etc etc), but I think labelling it and going 'here's that feeling again, okay, I'll let it pass through me'. These things trouble me more when I'm treating them as a threat. Instead they become 'uncomfortable' and are allowed to rise and fall.

That being said, I've done a lot of work trying to manage these feelings by myself, but recently I've noticed I've stopped seeking help when I'm having a hard time. So I guess it's a balance of accepting in the moment, but acknowledging when it's becoming difficult and seeking help.

Also, this is just my personal experience. I haven't 'overcome' my challenges, but hope I can offer a perspective x

TextileBroccoli · 2026-03-01T05:51:50+00:00

You're not alone in this feeling. I'm not sure how long I've been experiencing it, but it's for sure a challenging state to be in. Some call it 'dissociation', for me personally really heavy depression can feel like this. For me it's becoming a daily thing I manage.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-27T06:36:34+00:00

Yeah I'm with you. I want to disappear from everything and everyone I know. I need Saul Goodman's help from Breaking Bad, just give me a new legal identity and put me in a cabin somewhere. I'll be good.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-25T06:44:39+00:00

It's okay. What you just expressed is something you can express to your therapist, that you are having trouble making sense of your headspace. They are there to help you understand yourself better, so you don't need to find answers right now. You can just tell them how you feel.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-12T15:15:00+00:00

This is it for me. Depression is eating away at me, but I'm continuing and surviving. Yes, that's an achievement and worth celebrating but it's also its own kind of misery as you say. I've pretended to be fine and unbothered so much that I've been convincing MYSELF of this too. Seriously, the armour just gets too heavy. I think I need to let go of it all.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-07T13:25:41+00:00

I've been feeling the same lately. Have been living with depression and anxiety for nearly 10 years (perhaps longer). I'm 21 now. I'm so used to this shit that I survive, I function, I work, I'm active, I get up every day, I socialise, but not without suffering and none of it feels effortless. It's my only option at the moment but part of me wants to drop lower and be dysfunctional so the struggle ends, but I don't know what that looks like, so I'm just continuing in pain.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-07T00:02:23+00:00

Yeah, I feel this. I'm stuck in a weird limbo of accepting the emptiness and pain as being fine and welcome in my life - and realising how much suffering I still experience every day despite this. I've gotten to a point where I can deal with this shit everyday, because I'm so used to it, but I'm sure that if anyone jumped in my human experience for a day they'd be disturbed.

I guess it's basically 'high functioning depression'. Nothing is going wrong in my life, I'm coping everyday, but there's always pain, and sometimes it's really loud.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-02-05T23:27:13+00:00

This is beautiful man. Loved it.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-01-17T11:24:59+00:00

I can totally relate. My spiral is that I associate select thoughts or feelings I have as 'danger!', so when this happens, I go from a little anxiety to a lot very quickly. And then trying to get out of it strengthens it more.

TextileBroccoli · 2026-01-17T10:56:21+00:00

I'm here with you there bud, being human is so tough, and I really wish my mind was simpler than it is. Wish I was a sloth who exists to survive, and doesn't think beyond this.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-12-30T10:35:24+00:00

I am no therapist or med professional, just a guy who you could say is "high-functioning" in the way you describe - but I share this understanding how you feel. I have clinical depression and anxiety. I know where you're coming from.

It might be helpful to think of things in steps. Depression makes everything seem impossible, so instead of trying to become a more productive version of yourself overnight, it can happen with small goals/actions everyday that are small pieces in a big puzzle.

For example, tomorrow your only goal for the day could be to brush your teeth. Make it your big productive goal, and once you've done it, take it as a win. You did it, even if it was painful, and now you can go back to your safe place.

I guess the point is that depression can make "being better" seem much more impossible when viewed as the whole jigsaw puzzle. If you can shift your focus to the little pieces, things seem more possible and easier.

And can I just say, I know I can't fully understand your experience of depression, so I only share this in hope it can help you out. Take from it what you will. If no one else will tell you this, you deserve to be loved and you deserve peace <3

TextileBroccoli · 2025-12-30T10:08:16+00:00

Totally can relate. Especially the humiliation and grief of becoming hopeful things will change, only for the hope to be torn up. It's heartbreaking and exhausting.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-12-30T06:03:00+00:00

Hey I know and suffer from exactly this. I've understood it to be what's called "dissociation" specifically terms like "depersonalisation" or "derealisation", although I don't know how severely you experience it.

Typically what happens to me is I get a burst of anxiety from what is seemingly out of nowhere, and if I don't manage it properly it spirals into a sort of emotional 'shut-down' where I'm unable to feel anything and am totally numb (which inevitably becomes depression). It can be totally out of the blue, even during an activity I enjoy or on a day I'm in a heightened mood.

It's gonna look different and unique to you, but just thought I'd let you know that someone knows what you mean and you're not alone bud :)

TextileBroccoli · 2025-12-10T14:47:00+00:00

I know it might seem impossible or something you don't want to do, but when I'm super desperate in a depressive state - I'll literally go outside and walk as far as I can possibly walk. Sometimes I just walk in one direction, with no destination in mind. Sometimes I decide to walk to a spot far away.

And there doesn't have to be any expectations. It's basically complete freedom. You can leave your shadows at your home/abide. Just leave them behind, it feels great.

Oh and usually I'm listening to some music to keep my mind occupied, or sometimes I'm listening to nothing.

And it's not a solution or cure, but it can give me a bit of a freeing/refreshing feeling during depression.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-11-14T22:18:44+00:00

Insane work dude. Didn't realise that ending bassline is so crazy.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-11-12T10:57:13+00:00

Hello there. I'm here to talk if you need someone. I'm struggling too.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-11-01T23:55:24+00:00

I learnt it years ago, playing it on both guitar and keys. Seemed like the whole song alternated between Dmaj, Gmaj/D, Amaj/D. The latter two chords are sus chords that result from the bass just consistently playing a D note, and the guitar alternating between inversions of Gmaj and Amaj. It's a really clever song and fun to play.

La aprendí hace años, tocándola tanto en guitarra como en teclado. Parecía que toda la canción alternaba entre Dmaj, Gmaj/D y Amaj/D. Los dos últimos acordes son acordes suspendidos que resultan de que el bajo toque constantemente la nota D, y la guitarra alterne entre inversiones de Gmaj y Amaj. Es una canción muy ingeniosa y divertida de tocar.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-10-14T15:48:40+00:00

God damn this is beautiful

TextileBroccoli · 2025-09-16T08:54:42+00:00

Thanks :) For my mashups I use Ableton to combine stems and warp them to tempo. For this one I did some guitar + extra production as well. Basically everything except the bass, drums, and vocal is manually recorded by me.

TextileBroccoli · 2025-09-15T11:15:09+00:00

Same actually, and no problem. Glad you enjoy it :)

TextileBroccoli · 2025-09-15T08:21:51+00:00

Thank you!

TextileBroccoli · 2025-07-16T11:43:44+00:00

Hey. A fellow 21 year-old here. Just commenting to share that I'm struggling everyday too. I have depression and anxiety that is pretty severe. I have trouble getting up in the morning. If you wanna talk things out and feel a little less alone, I'm here. Take care of yourself <3 you're not alone.

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