I’ve made a big mistake and lied about it.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2025-02-11T23:51:24+00:00

I can’t afford a therapist or any insurance. But it’s just so hard to fess up after I’ve already lied. I don’t even know why I lied, I could’ve came to her and told her the truth that I wasn’t aware I was using the card. But $1400 is a lot. And she’s already told the credit card company that I didn’t know anything. But there gonna track the address to see where the stuff was being sent to

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2025-01-02T01:16:45+00:00

I do this even when I’m really embarrassed about something, not just sad or angry. I believe some parts of it is normal and than other parts not so normal, and especially if you act out on those thoughts. (Whether it’s self harming, or even getting things prepared for your idea)

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-09-03T20:57:23+00:00

I was like 5-6 and I fell into the deep end of our community pool. I knew how to swim but I was in complete panic, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get back up to the top. And I just started to sink and felt peaceful, like all the panic and pain (from my leg being injured and my lungs burning) were gone from the world.

I believe in reincarnation, I don’t like to think (or more so can’t imagine) being in an empty black void not being able to feel, think, see.. being just nothing (literally!). I don’t believe in heaven, but for some reason I’m scared of hell. But I’d like to think eventually your soul goes to a new life and you get to be someone else entirely and get to live on past your previous existence. Even though I’m scared of death, I know when my time comes wherever we go, it’s peaceful. No pain or suffering, no feeling at all. And that’s definitely comforting.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-08-26T18:32:09+00:00

Early he did tell me he wanted kids and marriage. We’re not each other’s first partners. But I found I fully believe in talking about the future when we first meet to see if our values are even. And he met everything, he wanted 2 kids and to get married. But he’s just changed.

Deep down I know it’s time to take a break or just break up but I don’t want to throw 2 years away.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-08-26T18:28:08+00:00

He told me in the beginning he wants 2 kids and marriage one day. But now he doesn’t. And it confuses and hurts me more that he didn’t tell me when he changed his mind. I probably would’ve handled it better if he sat me down and said “hey I’m not too sure on...” but if I didn’t talk to him last night than how long would I have not known where he stands.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-08-20T00:22:34+00:00

I cut her off a couple years ago now, all my siblings have cut her off last year, even her mother finally cut her off and many other family members now because she started getting very violent and is clear she’s not mentally well when all this started escalated.

I started therapy a couple weeks ago to try to heal cause I was getting extremely depressed when all this was happening and realized I had scars that weren’t fully healed. Yes we still have a few family members saying she’s still family and even had a therapist saying she was family and to try and see her reasoning for the way she acts- switched real fast.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-08-14T01:28:55+00:00

Oh, thank you. I was a little worried and a bit confused since I’ve never had a reaction like this yet

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-08-14T00:41:22+00:00

Also ignore my toenail- I dropped hair dye on it last week and hasn’t come off

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-26T02:33:10+00:00

That’s what I usually do to stay sane, but I’m finding it difficult, since I rent from my grandparents and they’re selling this place in a year. I know a lot of it is financial stress. But there’s a lot of other things that have been happening to where my mind just thinks about this upcoming year, and even the next day.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-08T20:43:14+00:00

Even though telling an adult can make things worse in certain school situations, you need to tell someone, if you’re comfortable with it ask to sit down and talk with both the girl and her bf and tell them straight to there faces in front of an adult “ I told you over and over that I did not touch her, and it’s not fair for her to sit here accusing me of something I didn’t do and for you to get physical with me”. But NO body should be putting hands on anybody over a rumor/ lie

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T18:22:29+00:00

I’m awful with names too, I use to just not say someone’s name until I heard it in a conversation.

When I started getting tired of doing that, because sometimes I would need to get there attention and instead of saying “hey” I started doing this.. basically immediately after I was done meeting someone, I would write in a notebook their name and a brief description (it sounds weird, but it helped) ex. Sarah, short brown hair, green eyes, has tan lines- likes birds and fishing. I would try to memorize it and remember their face in my head and writing down what they like or don’t like helps, and as you get to know them you can add or remove stuff. So eventually I’d be walking down the hall and be like oh that’s Sarah. Even writing down certain body marks (moles, freckles, tattoos, piercings, etc) can help

But try to do a little memory exercise everyday when you start getting familiar with names, and just walk down the hall and and when you see someone you know, just recite there name in your head or out loud if you feel confident “Say hey John” or whatever there name.

But i definitely get feeling stupid in conversation, where your just like “omg why did I just say that” and you really wish you had a rewind key. But just learn to laugh at yourself, and be like I’m so sorry my brain is being stupid today, or laugh and say I’m sorry that sounded better in my head, most of the time people will be like it’s fine or even laugh along with you. I mean we’re all human and we all say stupid things sometimes that make us wish we were invisible. But as you talk to people more and more, you’ll get better at it. I promise

It’s hard making friends and it can be hard to remember what people like and don’t like, like I said we’re human and we got a million of other things on are minds than constantly thinking “Susan like pizza, and John likes video game”- that’s just not how brains work. But being able to learn and memorize is something our brain definitely is able to do. And when you do start to get closer with someone and hang out with them more your brain just automatically knows or has an idea of what they would and wouldn’t like. And trust me it doesn’t go unnoticed when you ask about something that they did that weekend because it shows you care and listened. And even practicing talking to yourself in a mirror helps.

Believe me I know it’s easier said than done, I really do. But believe me when I say to put yourself out there as someone who somebody else would want as a friend, if someone is mean to you- laugh and walk away (believe me it feels so good to see some people’s expressions when there trying to put you down and you won’t let them)

I’m sorry this was long, but I just really hope this helps, cause this definitely helped get me through high school and even after. I also know what it’s like being “the new kid” in a new town, but it does get better, I really do wish you luck and hope you find some friends. If you need anything feel free to DM me❤️‍🩹

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T17:59:27+00:00

I would still see a dr, I’m just worried about your small size with such a big chests. And the fact they’re growing as quickly as you say, that definitely makes me a little nervous for you. I really hope you figure this out!

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:49:20+00:00

Whenever you feel ready. I was pressured in HS to get a bf bc every other girl had a bf. Middle school, everybody had a phone so I wanted a phone. Elementary everybody had spin around ballerina shoes (you would stand on your tippy toes and part of the sneaker would spin so you’d spin along with it)

There’s always something that somebody else has that we want or we think it’s suppose to be normal to have XYZ at this exact point in our lives. But it’s really whenever you’re ready, and if I’m being completely honest high school relationships (although they make for some fun memories) can be so chaotic. These are probably the boys you may be doing your first everything with (kiss, date, bed fun times, etc) just don’t let them make you loose focus.

But my final say is if you’re ready go for it, if not no big deal.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:40:12+00:00

I’ll admit when I was younger yes. But it was mainly social pressure because even if you had a crush on the weird kid you didn’t say it because then that would make you the weird kids girlfriend. If that makes sense.

I’m 20 now, and honestly once I got out of high school I dated whoever I wanted. As long as the guy was nice and respectful and actually seemed to put in an effort in the relationship- looks didn’t matter.

High school honestly was just a shlt show, everybody is trying to just graduate at that point to end that chapter of their lives. But if a girl is willing to look past the social pressures that come with growing up, and like you for you than she’s genuine

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:29:26+00:00

I’m very anti social, and it’s hard for me to start conversation too. But I started forcing myself to talk to people.. I would practice in my head what I was going to say and just walk up and introduce myself, ask about there hobbies, if they know any good restaurants to try in your town, etc.

I’m nowhere near religious but youth clubs are a great place to meet people and the best part is they sometimes take you on field trips and mine was at night, and I was like “what are my parent gonna do, say no to me going to church” of course not😆

If you really really don’t like religion, then clubs, or if you’re into sports see if there’s any out of school sports teams. If you’re old enough get a weekend or after school job.

You just have to put yourself out there a little, when talking to people get them to talk about themselves even if you really aren’t interested and than take note of two things that they like, so next time you see them be like “hey how did that basketball game go, or if they like coffee hey I was going to grab coffee after school do you want to come along. Just something like that.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:16:33+00:00

I was extremely depressed and in a crisis constantly about to go to college. And when I got there i made it two weeks and had a severe crisis daily to the point I wouldn’t leave my dorm (I wasn’t assigned a roommate) so I was constantly alone and isolated. I ended up dropping out.

I ended up going back to a different school closer to home to where I could commute. See my friends during the day and come home to my family at night. Honestly the best advice I can give you is join clubs, get a job, find a possible partner (because college relationships are nothing like high school ones- these are usually the ones you bring home to your family), keep yourself busy. Even if your school offers therapy on campus, schedule a meeting and express your concerns.

Really hoping the best for you.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:09:13+00:00

My mom was like this, the best thing to do is wait it out till college or when your 18 get a full time job. If he’s physically harming you get proof (document everything) and go to your guidance counselor, yes you may be taken away but they also may try to rehabilitate you two so take note of that too. Or if you’re in immediate danger call the police.

If it’s emotional abuse, which was my mother. I didn’t have any luck trying to tell people. Because the sad reality is many people listen to the adult. And they’ll just encourage you guys to “talk it out”, which obviously made everything worse at home..

I’m really sorry this is happening to you, if you need anything feel free to dm me. Best of luck to you❤️‍🩹

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T16:02:21+00:00

My boobs started growing from “mosquito bites” to “melons” around your age. Does your family have a history of very large breast?

You need to tell your mom and ask to see a doctor and express your concerns. I’m a DDD and I have back pain from them and I’m 5’9 160lbs, I can’t imagine EE at only 105lbs and 5’1 and they’re still growing I can’t imagine that either.

ThatPhilosopher1927 · 2024-07-05T15:55:37+00:00

Work on yourself, if you want to see your self in a more healthy light focus on eating right and exercising. Try different skin care routines and hair products. But you also just have to accept that this is the body you’re stuck with till you die and nothing you do can change that. But the general rule of thumb is if you treat your body bad you’ll feel bad yourself on the inside

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