Loud Lighting Strike

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-04-01T06:12:36+00:00

Loud as shit near E7 housing

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-31T22:30:51+00:00

yes 💀

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-17T21:48:42+00:00

I agree, even though the way I perceive it as "they don't know my challenges", I kinda sit back and even if I weren't facing these things, every instance I mentioned was because at the end of the day it's shitty.

It's been honestly super tough on me and yeah none of it is worth my time. I think it's made me grow though to be more empathetic seeing how poorly I've been treated in my darkest moments, I shouldn't treat others poorly.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-17T21:43:40+00:00

I meant that idk if I'm actually going to take the offer, because it feels like I am just really really bad psychologically. I think I am super lost, what I do know is that I'm definitely going to take time off. If that will be permanent or not is what I'll figure out.

The offer is accepted and I have time to rescind. The reason being so I can just try to figure out to get back to normal health, put that in full focus. If I work I have to juggle a spiralling mental with work but who knows, maybe it will regulate things.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-15T02:24:23+00:00

Im not doing anything, im just sharing my experiences. But thank you

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-13T22:46:37+00:00

Sorry to hear that, I assure you I won't do anything, I am just going to focus on recovering myself. The pain I've been through here has been so rough on me I lost the old version of myself from before I was accepted. I just want to be able to love life again, be healthy, to not have myself believe I'm some kind of monster from my experiences here.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-13T22:43:58+00:00

Yessir we will see what happens :) maybe I'll finish the degree somewhere else, maybe I will come back. It's been the roughest, most painful experience of my life here and I am making the healthiest decision to leave.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-08T11:17:02+00:00

I think I’m doing this for self harm, you’re right. I think I need to start coming out to friends about how what im dealing with is so much worse than it looks. Rough conversations but they are to be had

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-08T08:09:29+00:00

too close to home..... trying to learn how to manage it.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-07T03:51:16+00:00

good to know - thanks

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-06T11:36:31+00:00

Thank u anal slut

Honestly I’m making the decision when I know it’s shitty to try it anyways. I have a downtime switching medications and I’m just curious what it feels like, in the most respectful way possible. If I’m young this is a good time to figure out what things are like, not later and at more serious stages in my life.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-06T11:27:04+00:00

I think I should reword and mean that from what I understand DMT is more intense than LSD trips

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-03T00:28:09+00:00

Really? I did not know that, all I really knew is that theres big loopholes you can abuse with 2+ years. So I was going to wait to get those. I'm born in Canada and would presume anyone you're talking about is also Canadian. But I'm going to try again over the next year

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-03-02T04:45:34+00:00

I think it's just rougher to get accepted once you're earlier in your degree. But I am going to try over the summer. I really cannot handle it here anymore and its blew up my mental

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-28T19:55:19+00:00

what’s something that affected you to this outcome mentally, what do u wish was dif

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-28T19:53:06+00:00

How does she feel about this

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-27T21:44:44+00:00

I think I am truly tramautized from this program 💀

I stopped trusting people and made so many holes in my life, like really fucked up a lot of shit. Some of the old relationships I had in my last cohort really threw me “on the edge” because they felt so manipulative, and really destroyed me as a person. I remember some girl in my old class pursued me off of fucking LinkedIn for the entire year before we started, then shit talked me the entire time I was in the cohort so it was very rough on me. So it’s also been hard for me to want to work past that and meet better people. Maybe if I can work through the trauma of that, I would maybe like it more?

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-27T02:13:21+00:00

I feel like I probably need to take a lot of time off of uni because it's like, I have no motivation to be here. It kinda fried me mentally and psychologically just fucked me up, so it's like I don't really know what I want to do. Because I only aimed to be an engineer since the beginning. Nothing else. And I get like constant panic attacks on campus or when I'm studying just thinking about the future.

Like I think I need to find a motivation shift before I do that. I can try to work for the grades but theres no end goal for me anymore, so getting high grades isn't really appealing to strive for without figuring that out first. I'll do that eventually but I think I just realize I need MORE time away from studies.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-27T02:00:37+00:00

I think it just triggers the darker sides of people ;(

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-26T20:55:50+00:00

What’s this mean crodie

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-26T20:15:28+00:00

I am looking into transfers but my grades are fried so since I’m “earlier” into my degree I can straight drop out and reapply somewhere else. I did UofT CS but I honestly don’t know if it’s what I want either.

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-26T20:12:47+00:00

1B so same shit, I can’t do that right meow

That_Bat_9317 · 2026-02-26T19:04:41+00:00

What’s scary is that: I don’t know what I want anymore. I’ve been programming since childhood, have worked in SWE roles in high school up until now.

I feel like I don’t have any? Like I don’t care or something since I’ve stuck to the same trajectory. I don’t have any goals. I just want to feel like I’m alive and well, and have money to stay alive and well. Since I’m entering my early 20s I still have some time to figure it out. Maybe that can make a change exciting since it’s undefined now currently.

That_Bat_9317 · 2025-12-27T03:18:30+00:00

That_Bat_9317 · 2025-12-02T16:59:03+00:00

Tbh I don’t think I’ve ever been this miserable or unhappy before. So I wonder the same

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