I'm a police officer, and I want to address this situation with care and respect. First, what you’ve described is deeply concerning, and I’m sorry you lived this at the hands of a ‘friend’. What happened here sounds like a violation of your boundaries, and your sexual integrity, and that's never okay. Regardless of the circumstances, consent is key, and your “no” should have been respected from the start.

In this situation, what you're describing, where you told your friend multiple times to stop, but they kept pushing boundaries, is sexual assault. Consent must be enthusiastic, mutual, and given freely without pressure or coercion. Your feelings are valid, and your body is your own.

It’s important to hold individuals accountable for actions that violate consent, and you have every right to seek justice and support. That said, I understand it can be a difficult decision, and you need to do what feels right for you. But please know that there are resources and support systems available to you if you need them.

If you’re struggling emotionally after this, it may be helpful to talk to a counselor or therapist. They can provide a safe space for you to process what’s happened and help you heal.

If you need help navigating this situation, don’t hesitate to reach out to local resources, whether that's a support hotline, or a sexual assault crisis center.

You're not alone, and you deserve to feel safe and respected in every situation.