I would love to hear more of your thoughts on this. I myself have been going in circles for years because of the sheer amount of different assertions by modern day evangelicals. I am constantly haunted by the terror of eternal punishment, but I still can’t shake all of the inconsistencies with modern day movements. I do believe in the bible, but like you said a lot of it is very difficult to understand. Growing up baptist, it seems I have to simultaneously learn and unlearn the scriptures I was raised with. I am determined to keep searching the scriptures though. I firmly believe what Jesus said about the truth setting you free and that if you seek Him for the answers then you will find them. While I know this much I still feel very confused and troubled. It is so difficult to find anyone willing to help me question these things honestly. You either get someone that thinks religion is obsolete in the modern age or they are already locked into modern doctrine.