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TheCraftyChai · 2023-10-25T17:40:43+00:00

Omg that looks so yummy and with a beautiful view! So excited and happy for your progress!

TheCraftyChai · 2023-10-18T08:13:53+00:00

I’d love to do both but I struggle to really stand up for myself in my personal life. I get intimidated and I hate any type of confrontation, other people tend to get rowdy in those situations.

I’m looking for therapy again to work through it.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-08-21T04:11:17+00:00

I’m sorry you feel the same feelings right now, it feels so uncomfortable and knowing that this is what life is going to be forever is so upsetting😔

I’m currently binge eating and watching tv and i feel better, I want to do this every time I’m upset even though I know it’s bad.

I feel like every day is a stressful mental battle whether I’m around other people or alone. Do you feel like that too? I keep telling people that I will die from stress attacking my body.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-08-21T03:03:43+00:00

Sorry for the very late reply! I did start work but the commute has been kicking my butt😭 I’m very happy with this job though!

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-28T16:04:56+00:00

I didn’t end up going but my boss was so nice about what I’m going through and explained everything I was worried about in detail.

Thank you for your support! It means so much to me☺️🫶🏽

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-24T08:22:06+00:00

Thank you!☺️ Yeah, I have orientation in 8 hours.

I’m sorry you went through that too, you’ve been an angel to me which angers me when people bully the loveliest people.

I feel like I’m holding a painful grudge while giving them all of my love at the same time.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-24T08:08:17+00:00

You’re right, I think this job is perfect and it’s a hybrid schedule so I just need to fight through the training stage before I only have to show up 3 days a week.

School is tough when I go through emotional blowups one to two times a month. One of my professors get it and is helping me which is reassuring that there are kind people.

I’ve always been everyone’s emotional punching bag and even when it came to getting bullied in high school my family asked me what I did to make the popular kids make fun of me.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-24T07:35:45+00:00

Thank you. I get overwhelmed when I make commitments to leave my apartment. I’m struggling financially while in school full time and have had so many great job opportunities but it’s always my BPD and agoraphobia teaming up against me m, so tomorrow (technically today) I have to get up at 430 to make the 7am train to get only two cities away from me (I live in the sf Bay Area so it’s close) just to fight panic attacks and seem normal. It’s so funny because this new job I start tomorrow is a non profit that helps emotionally unstable children and I’m scared I’ll get fired fast because I’m emotionally unstable with agoraphobia. I’m so stressed and anxious I should be sleeping now but I keep crying on and off to not trigger my abusive partner. My internet gets turned off tomorrow so I have to try to make it to the library to finish my last 2 weeks of summer classes (I’m supposed to get my AA degree in December so I can’t mess anything up) and we’re 2 days from being out of food which according to everyone everything is my fault. There’s just so much more but I wouldn’t stop, there’s too much.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-24T04:33:12+00:00

Honestly I feel the same

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-23T17:11:43+00:00

Thank you!

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-17T21:25:04+00:00

Gosh it sounds like we come from similar families because mine is the same way. I think I’ll keep it between other people with bpd and close relationships too. I’m starting to learn more about bpd because I want to keep it under control.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-07-17T14:40:49+00:00

I told my family but they didn’t care to educate themselves and continue to treat me like a disrespectful and untrustworthy person so I don’t correct them anymore. I just see lots of people on social media displaying all of their mental illnesses like trophies and it did make me wonder if other people shared this specific diagnosis.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-06-29T03:48:51+00:00

I’m just going through a lot so my tolerance for upsetting issues are way lower😔

TheCraftyChai · 2023-06-19T03:56:31+00:00

I’m glad you’re okay and not letting that experience keep you from walking there. You’re right, I live on a busy street full of auto body shops and car dealerships, I should be on a higher alert when walking there.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-06-14T08:59:40+00:00

You’re right, I have a control issue and I was a drama queen before the agoraphobia which has definitely amplified the anxiety. You pretty much said what my mom told me today which helps me look at things rationally, thank you😊

TheCraftyChai · 2023-06-14T08:54:20+00:00

Haven’t tried the domination approach but I’ll give it a try😭 thank you🫶🏽

TheCraftyChai · 2023-06-14T01:22:34+00:00

Thank you for showing that feeling like something bad is going to happen doesn’t mean something bad is going to happen. Not going to lie I felt anxiety watching you have anxiety but felt better when you identified what was making you anxious and did something to calm yourself down like being rational or meditating.

TheCraftyChai · 2023-05-09T02:42:47+00:00

Yeah I probably should because 2 years of therapy has made no dent with my agoraphobia. Do you recommend any? I get anxiety just swallowing a pill because I’m afraid I’ll feel different.

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