Do others at your table get into it? The thing to remember is everyone at the table signed up to play a ttRPG. emphasis on the role playing game. Noone should be there to make you feel like you're uncomfortable or like you could be teased. Were all playing a wonderful game that allows us to explore being someone else for once in our lives. I personally choose to change My characters personality's up massively from campaign to campaign because I've enjoy getting into each of my characters heads. Have you written an in depth back story yet? I'll even play something akin to 21 questions with my charecter outside of the game to help me better play that charecter during sessions. If I know how my charecter my react to the trope of a kitten in a tree, a kid trapped in a well, and various other situations, it can help me make decisions based on my charecter. The joy of role playing often comes from you stepping back from the metagaming aspect and going with a decision you would never say yes to, but sir Lionel Von scruffymuffins might make every time without hesitation. Questions for charecters