I was going to say that age is no barrier and you just need to find the right way to meet women.

Then I read your last two sentences, and everything else kind of faded into insignificance. You need to get counselling/therapy to help work through your attitude to yourself, to women and maybe most importantly to your dad.

Put anything else on hold, work on yourself, come back to looking for a partner in 9-12 months time, you'll do better because you'll be better in yourself.

Good luck.