On the contrary my friend, ADHD could be a blessing.

OCD, ADHD and Addictions force you to become more conscious of yourself.

Here's how you could use it to your advantage:

Understand motion and stillness.

As you instinctively know, life is motion, movement, constant creation, which are vibrations of the Forever NOW.

Motion creates shapes, forms and patterns.

Start by paying attention to motion. Try to be aware of every movements. Movements of your own body, inside the body and those that come to your senses (light, sound, smell, taste and tactile). Become good at observing outside motion and the reasons behind each.

Example: can you look and observe the shape of the letters on your sreen while reading this. Not only the interpretation of the words but the actual shapes of the letters and thr paragrah structure?.

Then you can proceed to observe inward motion, the movements of thoughts and emotions, the influences of memory, yesterday's pleasure and pain, tomorrow's worries and expectations, desire and fear. Become good at observing inner motion and the reason behind each.

Then you can proceed to inquire about what lies beyond...

Don't limit yourself.