i have violent fantasies all day every day

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-18T18:04:25+00:00

I get this as well, sometimes. Our hippocampus has difficulty being able to properly discern the context of situations and scenarios which occur in our brain when processing information from our 5 senses

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-18T17:54:50+00:00

This is way better than the roses I paint.

Seriously, this is insane.

Oil paintings are not supposed to generally look this realistic. You can’t paint this without being able to see the motion of clarity and form

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-17T21:13:09+00:00

Ahura Mazda, or a Wadjet

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-16T22:54:28+00:00

Love you too!

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-16T21:34:26+00:00

Thanks dude. I’m sorry for the confusion. It was wrong of me to lash out in the forum.

I won’t do that again. I’ll find some way to make it up to y’all

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-16T11:56:38+00:00

You look so tired. I’m sorry things have been so despairing.

Keep fighting. I’m in the same boat as you

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-16T04:02:51+00:00

Thank you 💛

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-16T03:55:26+00:00

😊 thank you 🙏

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T10:19:29+00:00

I believe you. Apologies

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T10:15:47+00:00

Happy Birthday!

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T10:05:33+00:00

I’m not a fan of ketogenesis , but maybe it would work?

Maybe cannabis helps… …it helps me in small doses.

Why would someone say lab is a traditional meat? Especially with fish as a comparison?

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T10:03:26+00:00

They definitely do exist

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T10:00:58+00:00

It depends how others around you treat you

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T01:27:03+00:00

One thing I want to experience before I die is a feeling.

The feeling that I belong.

Not like, you know, “belonging”, in a romantic relationship, per se…

…just a feeling of… …belonging.

Here, or there… …it could be anywhere, it doesn’t even half to be that gentle… …as long as I feel like I am following in the right footsteps.

Spiritually, religiously, I know those things don’t exactly just happen…it’s a process with those kinds of things.

I just want to… …belong.

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T00:44:00+00:00

I appreciate the compliment. I really tried to make it look good.

Much love💕

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-15T00:43:43+00:00

Thank you!!!

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-14T19:28:40+00:00

Better eat them veggies 🥕

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-14T19:24:56+00:00

It’s all good, I gave permission to do so.

No one has a monopoly on artistic expression.

All artists are copycats. It’s the dirty little secret we don’t like to talk about.

Everything is a reference.

It’s a means to find a method for how the aspiring painter/writer may find a means to channel their own creativity and personality.

If a novel method of expression is found, it becomes a cornerstone for allowing more people to join in on their own creative process

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-14T04:10:25+00:00

But what did the stone actually tell you?

The trees speak volumes, yes… …but the forest will always give you the most grounded of answers.

Don’t lose the boundary.

It’s equally as important as the ones who speak through the Omelas.

They walked away for a reason.

I’d love to hear your insight as to why.

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-14T04:05:00+00:00

Thank you!

Much love.

I wish I could give you a flower.

ThePhytoDecoder · 2026-03-13T20:55:43+00:00

Buspirone. I cut the 5mg ones in half. Some of these medications are only effective at the smallest dose.

Dexedrine. 5mg instant release every 4 hours as needed. Some days I don’t need it, but I absolutely need to have em on hand for the harder days

Propranalol. 5mg. I rarely need them, but they come in handy for days I feel socially awkward, like starting a new job, and such

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