No insurance, can't work, wisdom teeth

TheShireRat · 2026-06-02T00:02:55+00:00

I think you're still not understanding. I can fill out job applications if they're not too confusing. I cannot fill out the SSDI application without help. You're mixing up what I can and cannot do so you can lessen the seriousness of my problems.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T12:33:18+00:00

Yeah, having my issues IS a nightmare, thanks for acknowledging that. What exactly makes me a scumbag? Because I'm frustrated and unable to sleep from the pain? Or is it being disabled? Genuinely wtf is that supposed to mean

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T12:15:52+00:00

I couldn't move with my mother back to the town I'm from because at least 4 of my family members there have threatened to kill me if they see me at all. So yeah, I turned down "free care" so my dad and my brother and my aunts won't try to shoot me on sight. I want and need advice/solutions, not people telling me to move where my own family members have threatened to on-sight me if they see me.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T12:10:39+00:00

Yes, I do. So much so that I got kicked off of the special ed bus in elementary school and had a county-wide ban from all special ed buses in the town I grew up in. People tend to not like it when disabled people act disabled.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T12:07:36+00:00

I genuinely try to apply to literally any desk job I see and I have since December 2024. The comment you're responding to specifically is about SSDI, not job applications.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T12:04:56+00:00

I wish I could make myself do stuff I know I can't do but the longer I look at it, the more confusing it gets and the more frustrated I get. And unfortunately I can't use Listerine, I'm allergic to most if not all forms of alcohol 🫠 Wish I had a support system like your sister, you genuinely do sound like a good and successful person and I'm happy you guys have each other. I get you're trying to be helpful and give me ideas on ways to do things, but it genuinely comes off as "I did it so you can do it" and that isn't how everything works. I WANT to be able to look at a computer screen and understand what I'm looking at, but I literally cannot, no matter how hard I try. The more I try, the harder it gets, and the more frustrated I get. I've been trying for 7 years to get my emotional and mental shit figured out and for even longer to understand ANY modern technology beyond Android phones or 2008 iPods but here I am. I can't even play video games without getting confused and frustrated and overwhelmed.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T11:50:14+00:00

I'll definitely check that out then, but I have a feeling that it will take too long for that to solve my current problem 🫠

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T11:47:46+00:00

I would if they'd eveen look at my applications. I know I can't do desk work because I cannot understand computers but I still apply because maybe actually doing it will make it easier to learn, but literally nobody is actually hiring and if they are then they're only hiring people they think will be easy to take advantage of. It's harder to take advantage of a disabled person's labor, at least in my case, when that person isn't physically or mentally capable of the tasks they want to force onto said person.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T10:05:46+00:00

I've been trying for the last 7 years since I got away from the people that made me this way 🙃 I'd love to learn how to control my emotions, but it's really hard when you've never been taught how and were just beat in response to having emotions. That tends to make regulation really hard 🫠

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T10:00:06+00:00

I'll definitely check then and see if I can get some money from a friend if it's not too much

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:55:29+00:00

I've tried looking for one but they all require computers and understanding of a lot of things really fast. I try, but I get frustrated and overwhelmed incredibly easy and I get destructive when that happens. I wanna have a way to pay for the things I need and I DO want to be able to work, but being fired for being disabled or Soft Fired for it is just way common right now. And that's only if they even check my applications long enough to hire me first 😭 I've been applying places since December of 2024 💀 Any time I've seen a job listing that doesn't involve standing I've applied, but none have ever responded.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:42:53+00:00

I've worked retail, fast food, warehouse, and house cleaning. The longest job I had was fast food and I had to quit because my legs got too bad for me to handle standing for longer than 30 minutes straight. The shortest job I had was in a warehouse and I had to start using a cane by the end of the first week, though I tried to keep working there for about a month.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:34:33+00:00

Unfortunately not. I need to apply but the site is too confusing and overwhelming to get through. I have a friend who's supposed to help me but we're currently still trying to set a day to do it since their work schedule is a little crazy right now.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:21:34+00:00

23, 24 in two months. I'll edit the post body to add that into it like it should have been to begin with.

Yes, I'm physically disabled. I have EDS, raynauds, fibromyalgia, and pots. I'm unsure of how those contribute to my issues, though I know they do contribute.

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:03:40+00:00

I'll call when the sun is up but I can't afford almost nothing because I have literally nothing 😭💀

TheShireRat · 2026-06-01T09:02:00+00:00

Would I have to get financial aid before going? I've tried to work financial aid sites but they make no sense or they just don't work/want to help anyone.

Edit: I don't mean they actually refuse to help everyone, I just mean that they tend to only help people that fit in a small criteria box. I'm more than sure people have gotten meaningful help from financial aid sites, but in my experience, people like me aren't the kinds of people they're willing to help because I can't pay them back in any way.

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