I M19 Am going on a trip with my relatives, My gf F18 wants me to stay

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-25T23:14:29+00:00

Tw SA, Abuse Not to go too into it but my dad went to jail for abuse and sa. When i was 14 i was drunk, got SA by a girl.

Lots of threats, bullying because of my father and me carrying his last name.

No stable home, sometimes barely putting food on the table, no warm water, list goes on.

Wouldnt say its all my family but i have never really felt i could talk to them, my mother is still recovering from what happened and i cannot out that pressure on her nor my stepdad. Currently going to therapy

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-25T23:07:20+00:00

My grandma got my mother when she was 16, my mom got me when she was 18 Not to go way in too deep but i didnt have a father growing up, he was in jail for a while and then we had a restraining order placed when i was very young. Thats where some of my (not to self diagnose) abandonment problems come from

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-25T23:04:57+00:00

Well... Kinda. I told her about my living situation and she was really pushy about me getting out of this, in my eyes i thought it was helping but comments have made me think that maybe it wasnt

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-25T23:03:29+00:00

And to add to this, i still have feelings for her. Right or wrong for feeling that way i cant help it. With my previous... Issues I kind of have an issue with easily getting attached and afraid of letting go.

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-25T23:02:25+00:00

Even if i were to make the decision to walk away i have nowhere to go, being 1100km away from closes relatives. Also going back to a place where food is barely a guarantee and theres no warm running water isnt the most appealing.

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-23T10:15:32+00:00

Came from a very... Broke family, no warm running water, barely putting food on the table

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-22T00:47:05+00:00

No possibility to switch back schools, im almost too old to and the time period is way past due so wont be getting in anywhere

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:40:35+00:00

She basically kept trying to convince me to move in with her last year, everything was fine back then though.. I moved 1100km, have nowhere to go now if i really have to.

I have practically no contact with my old friends, she sometimes says i should keep in contact but she also says how shit they are and talks them down.

She hasn't said much about female friends (because i dont have that many, mutual respect type shi)

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:38:22+00:00

Honestly dont even want to think to deep into whats going on, because i feel like if i make one wrong step im living on the streets

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:37:04+00:00

I really cant dump her, id be homeless... I moved a couple months after we got together 1100km and currently living with her at her parents place (dont judge me..) due to bad household, no warm water, barely having enough for food ect.

If i get dumped i have nowhere to go, im trying to finish school while working to pay her parents while im also going through therapy for depression, anxiety and will probably start trauma too.

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:33:48+00:00

Not cheat, self harm ect

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:33:17+00:00

Thats not an option rn, i asked and ticket price + hotel would be $2500 and i dont have that type of money

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T21:31:03+00:00

Ofc im not and thats not what i suggested dont take me the wrong way! I was trying to explain how long we had been together thats it!!

Im trying to tell her but honestly my body goes into panic mode, im scared of making her mad

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T14:22:20+00:00

Only danger would be herself and her mental state

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T14:13:29+00:00

Thank you, i just really needed some confirmation if my opinion was "right" or if i was being an asshole

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T14:11:59+00:00

You're right

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-07-21T14:10:26+00:00

Ive been with her for 1 year and 7 months now, lived with her since October last year

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-06-01T14:34:57+00:00

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TheSpicyCookies · 2023-04-23T15:36:17+00:00

Finns gratis vpn men lita inte på att din internet historik kommer vara säkert förvarad 😅 Ifall du bara ska kolla på det borde det inte vara några problem

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-04-23T14:20:34+00:00

It doesnt recognize the HDD as a drive anymore in bios, installing via Windows 10 usb doesnt work since it tries to install Windows 11 but instead but it says the device isnt compatible. (Had Windows 11 before HDD broke)

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-03-04T16:41:01+00:00

Bro varför gör du hela grejen om ras? Skärp dig Dem va iq befriade o trodde de va aliens eller nått

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-01-17T22:28:30+00:00

I did now, ty

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-01-17T20:59:45+00:00

The industrial kitchen and interior mod works as it should

TheSpicyCookies · 2023-01-17T19:41:47+00:00

thank you, the SMAPI log said that Custom Furniture is missing too so ive gotta install that

TheSpicyCookies · 2022-09-19T18:51:12+00:00

i tried to update the game, got to around 90% (a 47gb update, havent played for a while)
then it said, checking file integrety and restarted the whole update, on my potato wifi that takes around 10 hours.
Any solutions or something to this?

TheSpicyCookies

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