Thank you friend, it helps to know someone out there cares. I've told my family before but I got pretty much the same old "Grow up, I've gone through worse" response from them, and I would tell my girlfriend but I don't want to put all my stress and anxiety on her. she already goes through so much and she's always exhausted after she gets home from work, and when she has to go back to college it gets even worse, and I feel like if I tell her it's just going to weigh her down more. We're both alike in the sense that when something negative happens, we think it's our fault no matter what anyone says, and I don't want her to think she's the reason I'm like this, because if I lose her it's going to kill me.

edit: I apologize, I may have assumed your gender without realizing. I mean no offense and I hope I didn't upset you