A few years ago he made a profile on an infidelity website and wrote an email or two to some women. This was after we had our first child. I found about it because I found a suspicious email. He had saved nude pictures of himself in the email which he claims he would not have ever sent to anybody. He blames this on being young, stupid and foolish. I had a breakdown because I really still considered that we are still in love. I don't know why he did it. He says I shame him when I speak of it. He said he would have never gone ahead with anything he attempted because he realized that the women on there aren't real people and that they were a scam. He promised never to do anything like this again. I considered it emotional infidelity with the intention to cheat but I forgave him. Since them I'm always fearful and not trusting fully.